Real event ocd about something my mother did

My mother let my 2 year old sister ride in the back of the car with my 9 year old sister with no seatbelt or baby seat. Her defence was that it was only a 2 minute drive through our town. The guilt and shame I’m feeling is that I didn’t force her to put my sister in the seat. I was in the front seat and I did say that she should be in her seat in which my mother replied “she’s fine it’s only up the road”. In my ignorance I accepted her excuse and didn’t say anything else about it. Everything was fine, we got home safe and it was only a 2 minute drive but I’m only now realizing how dangerous it was and how I should of made her put my sister into her baby seat. I feel so awful and I’m not even sure if I should post this here. I’m 26 years old so I should know better and should have made her put her in her baby seat. I know I’m not the parent and it’s not my responsibility but when it comes to safety of a child it’s very important.

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Date posted: 1y ago

Wow seeing this truly made me realize how guilt works with OCD. Reading this, it sounds like a normal disagreement (although your mom was objectively wrong), you could have handled the situation a bit better, but you didn’t for whatever reason. But your brain is catastrophizing about how it could’ve led to something horrible and it would’ve been all your fault. The guilt won’t do anything to help. You simply need to learn from your mistake, put your foot down next time, and move on. Life is full of challenges and this is just one of them.

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Date posted: 1y ago

@ocdaintit By the way sorry if I sound preachy or something, I only commented because I get really heavy guilt over small things like this too. Oh and the “admitting your mistake” and the ultimatum of never making that mistake again no matter how small is part of the OCD. It’s a reflection of our moral compass but it’s become a compulsion.

cillian

Date posted: 1y ago

@ocdaintit Yeah my mind instantly goes to the ultimatum that I am a horrible brother and a terrible person and can’t even look at my little sister without feeling tremendous shame. You’re not being preachy at all don’t worry.

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Date posted: 1y ago

@cillian Sameee, my mind is full of ultimatums to try and ease the chronic guilt. The only thing we can do is admit we will never be perfect, and of course OCD wants to fight that idea with all its “what ifs”. But embracing that “risk” truly allows us to live life freely. Also you must be a good brother because you obviously care about your sister very much. Just don’t let that chronic guilt get to you!! 😌

Anony1314

Date posted: 6w ago

A VERY distressed mom. Someone anyone help!

Please comment. Just say if follows along the OCD pattern or not. I don't need reassurance per se! My daughter was laying across me and every time I breathed a certain way I was getting a groinal sensation. I kept breathing like that anyways (ugh idk why), and then my mind told me I had hurt/a**aulted her that I might as well do something else to hurt because what's more. So idk why or what overcame me other than the thought of doing it because my mind told me I had hurt her already ("my mind literally made me question what to do and I guess the only thing I could come up with was using my elbow) and causing another feeling but it came across my mind to elbow her, and I elbowed her crotch or side/thigh area. Which caused another very unwanted groinal sensation. Then I began FREAKING smooth out. And I've been stressing since. I feel like as a mom I don't deserve to be hers anymore. Idk what overcame me but my therapist says it's all OCD. I was doing SO well! Is this really OCD? This has all caused me a great amount of anxiety. I feel like a terrible person and mom. I just need help knowing if this is OCD. Not wanting reassurance. Just wanting to know if this lines up with the POCD I've been diagnosed with by my current therapist.

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Anony1314

Date posted: 6w ago

Is this truly an OCD episode? Just a mom trying

Just a little side note: I know this post has been made MANY times by me. However, I had a therapist respond to my post today saying that I need to reach out to my therapist on this because the context was not clear. This made me more stressed and ruminate more. It's not the therapist fault; but not I wonder if I'm really the monster. I'm a Christian mom who feels like I've ruined my life. My daughter was laying across me and every time I breathed a certain way I was getting a groinal sensation. I kept breathing like that anyways (ugh idk why), and then my mind told me I had hurt her that I might as well do something else because what's more. So idk why or what overcame me other than the thought of doing it and causing another feeling (I literally had to question what to do during this and the only thing I could come up with was to move my elbow) but it came across my mind to elbow her, and I elbowed her crotch or side area. Which caused another groinal sensation. Then I began FREAKING smooth out. Then I've been stressing since. I feel like as a mom I don't deserve to be hers anymore. Idk what overcame me. PLEASE tell me if I am a monster. I was doing SO well! Is this really OCD?

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Anony1314

Date posted: 4w ago

VERY stressed and ruminating. Please comment POCD

Please read and comment kindly. Really looking for support. My child was laying across me and every time I breathed a certain way I was getting a groinal sensation. I kept breathing like that anyways (ugh idk why), and then my mind told me I had hurt them that I might as well do something else because what's more. So idk why or what overcame me other than the thought of doing it and causing another feeling (I literally had to question what to do during this and the only thing I could come up with was to move my elbow towards her groin area) but it came across my mind to elbow my child, and I elbowed their crotch or side area. Which caused another unwanted groinal sensation. Then I began FREAKING smooth out and asked my child to move. Then I've been stressing since. I feel like as a mom I don't deserve to be theirs anymore. Idk what overcame me, and in the moment, it felt like I wanted to move my elbow, but I know that can also be my OCD speaking. Right? I clearly regret it all and hate myself. I would never intentionally hurt my child; I don't know what happened in my head when this happened. I was doing SO well! Is this my POCD that I've been diagnosed with by my OCD specialized therapist? Just a struggling mom who used to be the best of the best. I'm very depressed by this. Idk what to do with myself. I live in regret now, and I just wish it would've never ever happened. I can't stop ruminating and being depressed thinking I don't deserve anything.

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