Username: Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Crying alone

I wanted to look up videos of how to recover from Bi sexual ocd but it’s a theme I struggled w back in 2018 and it went away and ever since i was living my life and now it’s back … literally went from harm ocd to bisexual ocd and now I’m getting extreme false attraction and groinal responses. And I saw a TikTok girl saying she had intrusive thoughts about being a lesbian and she came out as lesbian 4 years later and I just can’t stop sobbing. I don’t wanna be attracted to girls I’m sorry. Nothing against them but I feel grossed and can’t accept it. I can’t even do erp because I cannot accept these thoughts. My third time w this theme- what if I’m in denial? Can someone please help me overcome this??

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Username: Brooklyn_99Brooklyn_99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

I’ve had the same struggle. Honestly I think titties are hot. But I can see myself with a woman. I’m not attracted to women at all. It used to really make me anxious but now I don’t really care. I would over analyze myself and sensations. You know this is just OCD being a bully. Everyone has intrusive thoughts. I’ve had intrusive thoughts about having sex with family members, that doesn’t mean I’m attracted to them. That girl you saw the video of, probably wasn’t giving out the full story. I would calm myself down if I were you. And remember this stuff is not a threat. It’s not a problem. Treat it like it’s nothing. Because that’s what it is. I’ve been where you are before. But it passed on cause I stopped caring.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@Brooklyn_99 I understand but I’m getting real false attractions and it’s causing me to go insane. I feel like I’m getting turned on and I do not want to be attracted to girls and nor do I want to be bisexual. My brain keeps me I can’t control my sexuality and it’s not a choice. I don’t want to do ERP for this because it’s gonna tell me and accept I’m actually bisexual. I do find girls attractive and pretty but not like that … sometimes with a couple of girls the attraction feels SO real like it does w a guy. ( this only occurred during my OCD episode) I feel wildly uncomfortable. Sorry I’m venting I can’t stop nor enjoy my life

Username: Brooklyn_99Brooklyn_99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous It’s all good. Your body is responding out of fear. That’s all. Ignore it as much as possible. You are in control. Not your obsessions. This will pass. All themes eventually pass if we allow them too

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@Brooklyn_99 How do we avoid them from coming back? I had harm ocd like few weeks ago and was giving people advice myself on SOOCD cus I was so sure I recovered from and BAM! Here I am … so hard and can’t keep the thoughts in :( I’m scared they’re gonna last me months and years

Username: Honeyshark Honeyshark

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous Are you doing ERP therapy?

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@Honeyshark I’m joined NOCD for harm ocd and it’s slowly started to Get better and now it’s being morphed into bisexual ocd … so idk how to erp for which and I did research on erp but idk how that’s helpful because what if it allows me to accept and come out as BI in the future?

Username: Honeyshark Honeyshark

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Everyone gets intrusive thoughts. Her story is different than yours since you’ve got OCD. You gotta stop feeding your OCD with trying to prove it and once OCD stops winning you’ll get your real feelings back.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@Honeyshark She had ocd also the girl 😢 she said she was getting intrusive lesbian thoughts and obsessed about her sexuality… I’m trying to do erp on mine :(

Username: alyzzaalyzza

Date posted: 1y ago

On a show I watched recently about sexual attraction and how it varies it showed that humans naturally have a sexual response (aka get turned on) by watching or thinking about any kind of sexual encounter. In the study the women clearly was not sexually attracted to monkeys at all but when she watched monkeys getting it on, her body naturally responded and that’s very normal. Our bodies can react to the thought of sex alone whether it’s male, female, or even another species. So your body is probably just responding naturally to you thinking about the subject of sexual attraction.

Username: blazedblazed

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

I’m so sorry you’re struggling with this! I’m also dealing with SOOCD myself and it really is unbearable at times. The thoughts bother you bc OCD is trying to take away something important from you. You can definitely find a girl attractive but not have any sexual or romantic interest. It’s totally normal, we all find certain things appealing! Nonetheless, thoughts and feelings are just that; they don’t mean anything unless we give them meaning. Think about what you did last time to recover; what worked for you and what wasn’t helpful? You got through it more than once before, so you can do it again. OCD will tell you otherwise but do that listen to it, that’s just another one of its lies.

Username: florence18

Date posted: 3y ago

Really struggling at the moment with sexuality OCD, getting to the point where I’m constantly on the verge of tears, I’m avoiding watching movies, Netflix series, scrolling through Instagram and tiktok. I’m 18 and everyone around me seems to be bi, but I’m so scared I’m not attracted to guys anymore. I want children and I have always wanted to be with a guy, now I can barely look at anyone and I can’t even think about being in a relationship. My brain is like ‘your lying to yourself’ ‘what if your gay’ etc. I can’t do anything anymore, I just want to hide and curl up. Anyone else feel like this.. I’m scared I’m in denial or something, I have never been formally diagnosed but I’ve had so many other themes, I’m scared it’s not ocd and I’m using it as an excuse.. I just want to go back to normal

Username: Aileen Gemmell

Date posted: 2y ago

I don’t know what to do anymore.

Hi just for reference, I’m a girl, I’m almost 17 and I’ve been boy crazy for pretty much all my life. I- I don’t even know what to think anymore, I identify as straight and enjoy thinking about men sexually and emotionally, but I can also masterbate to women weirdly enough? I’ve been diagnosed with pure ocd and I have no desire to have any sexual or emotional relationships with women in real life, and I’ve had hocd for over a year now, but I can masterbate to weird things sometimes and I know I’m not supposed to but I compulsively search things up very often and from what I’ve found most people would say that it would mean that I’m bi. The idea of being bi or gay has made me hyperventilate and cry god knows how many times, at this point I wouldn’t even be angry if I was bi or gay but I know that I’m not. My head keeps telling me that since I can masterbate to gay thoughts or lesbian thoughts sometimes that it means that I’m not straight even though I have no desire to do anything even remotely close to that in real life. This is one of my worst themes of ocd so far as compared to other people who have hocd they don’t get turned on or finish thinking about these things and I do but I don’t identify as bi or gay. I just, I don’t know what to do anymore? I was hoping someone on here goes through the same thing? And I’d really rather not hear that it’s just me denying it, I have a few people I talk to and occasionally when I bring it up they just say I’m in denial so I really don’t know what to do anymore.

Username: Rgreen061820

Date posted: 27w ago

SO-OCD

So I’ve struggled with sexual orientation ocd for a while now, along with relationship ocd. I’ve been with my boyfriend for 4 years as of yesterday (in a straight female, dating a straight male) and I was just on tik tok, and seen a girl who posted a picture of her crying and saying “me realizing I was gay and not wanted to leave my boyfriend because he’s my bestfriend” and now I’m in a whole panic attack. Because what if I’m gay and I don’t wanna leave my bf, or what if I’m in a denial, or something idk. And it feels so real. Idk what else to do anymore

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