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Fraud
I feel like a fraud. Genuinely. It makes me feel so damn guilty. My boyfriend deserves someone so much better than me. I wish there was an easy way out of all of this.
I feel like a fraud. Genuinely. It makes me feel so damn guilty. My boyfriend deserves someone so much better than me. I wish there was an easy way out of all of this.
Thanks for your words, guys.. I was doing ok but was exposed to a trigger, it led me down a spiral. It's really tough. I can't tell what's real or not, I just know it makes me feel awful. I don't know if it's bc of OCD or denial. I can relate to all these feelings, shame, guilt, depression. I really want to stay with him but it's almost like I can't, or I shouldn't. And I love him so much. It's so tiring. Good luck to both of you on this journey too. And again, thanks for the support.
@Lavender. Same I relate to what you said exactly not knowing what’s real, your not alone stay strong continue therapy
Hey I remember you commented on one of my post. I’m still in the same situation as well I feel very guilty and shameful, what if I’m in denial and leading my gf on what if I have to leave my gf, all these what if thoughts, it’s so difficult and depressing in some moments then after I seek reassurance on this app it stops so maybe this is a compulsion. I have faith ERP can help us over time stay with your bf because if that what you truly want then maybe it’s really for you. We can do this
You’ll get there I promise !! Don’t give up!!
He loves me and complimenta me and saya beautiful things and does many things for me, he says he loves me and he is there for me, but me.. i cant even say i love you without doubting, i am doubting my feelings my atractuon for him, everything, i feel so bad, i dont want to be like this, i hate myself . He is precious and genuine and im scared im not, i have moments when i am happy … but rn i am sad. I saw him today. i dont know what i felt but as im writing this i feel guilt amd fear. Scared that i may be pretending. I want to be happy, what if im not happy with him.. it cant be.
TW I’m feeling really bad about myself today. I feel like a fraud and a liar. I’ve been unable to enjoy my time with my girlfriend because I’m bombarded with my thoughts. I’ve been asking for reassurance from so many people and nothing is helping. Nothing makes me feel better anymore and I’m worried that this is just how it’s going to be for forever. I miss when I could just be happy and not overthink so much. I miss being able to get through my days without this crippling anxiety. I’m worried there’s going to be a day where I realize I have no fight left in me
I’ve been struggling with something that’s been really overwhelming, and I’m hoping to get some perspective from others here. I feel a lot of guilt about it, and I’m not sure if I’m alone in this experience. Lately, I’ve found myself daydreaming about romantic situations or getting caught up in ‘what if’ scenarios—where I wonder if I could develop feelings for someone else, or if someone develops feelings for me. The thing is, I’m in a relationship that I love, and I don’t want to act on these thoughts at all. What makes it even harder is that these thoughts often hyperfixate on one specific friend, and sometimes they feel entertaining or give me a dopamine rush. But then, of course, I feel even more guilty because it makes me feel like I’m betraying my boyfriend. These thoughts usually happen when I’m upset and looking for comfort, but then they morph into romantic scenarios, which makes me feel so disloyal. I’m constantly going back and forth between feeling curious or entertained by the thoughts and then feeling horrible for even allowing them to happen in the first place. I keep confessing these thoughts to my boyfriend, and he tries to be understanding. He’s just never been the type to daydream, so he doesn’t know if this is something other people experience or if it’s just me. I feel like such an awful girlfriend. Has anyone else dealt with something like this?
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