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SOCD and TOCD
The thoughts and feelings make me feel in denial. Accepting them makes them feel even more real
The thoughts and feelings make me feel in denial. Accepting them makes them feel even more real
Same, I accepted the thoughts temporarily just for me to sleep but the next morning I know that I don't see myself that way as it just makes me uncomfortable
Bro you think, are you a gay or are you straight man... Bc i have a tocd and socd but first of all i got soocd bc i watched and liked gay pornography then these thougts catch me if i a gay etc.. then 2 years later, so nowadays i got a tocd... Bro is it normal for me or im really transgender or gay i dont know
@I have ocd with sexual things I'm gay, I don't think I'm one to tell you whether you are gay or not. If being gay gives you a lot of intrusive thoughts through out the day there might be ocd as I didn't experience that when I was younger. I don't think gay pornography is a good indication of being gay
Same...
I'm constantly reading stories of coming out and there are a lot of similar points. You've been experiencing something like gender dysphoria lately and it's crippling me. I really don't know what to do.
@Kontheili Recently, I started to feel like my name, face, beard and appearance do not belong to me, which bothers me a lot, so I guess this is dysphoria, but at least the last 2 3 weeks of my 22 years of life are the things I have felt, I interpreted some events I experienced when I was a child, and I don't know if they exist. .
@Kontheili I understand what you said and I share it and yes, when those fearful feelings come, what I should do is actually related to what you said and I seriously started to think that I beat it, the problem already started with my HOCD, I was saying to myself that you are living a lie, you are not real, I was in a very bad mood and I was in a very bad mood that I could not beat it. I believed in the face. but now I stopped commenting when I came to think of something. I don't interpret anymore and these things put me at ease, you said "she" is that "she" you or your partner? in the meantime, have a good time. I believe we will beat it together.
@Kontheili Pls check my last post, if you are following me you should look at my last post
Can ROCD make your thoughts and feelings feel 100% true or real???? Like I can have a thought or feeling and in that moment it feels real or should it not feel real until the ocd latches onto it?
Since I started to accept that maybe some of the problems i deal with might be things that i should accept cause either way I feel shame if i have these thoughts, and i think that being that person is shameful. I'm struggling these days and I noticed I have thoughts about God not being real, not helping me, questioning if its real and these thoughts makes me feel shame. But i keep accepting it cause Im tired that i feel like im lying to myself and everytime i feel like im avoiding the truth, so I try to accept it that its okay that im having these problems(I do the same with suicidal ocd,I start to accept maybe its real) but since im doing this I noticed it makes me depreassed cause of shame. Made things worse, I always spin about shame that it might be true, i try tk accept it but it doesnt work, I feel like maybe i should go back and label every feeling and thought as ocd but i know i wouldnt be free cause i would feel like im trying to make myself feel better... But if its ocd, how can I decide its that if I have the emotions like im losing my faith, I get angry when i hear about faith, sometimes i feel like i really question it, have thoughts like i dont want to have faith...
I never read someone talk about this so I wanted to know if it applies to anyone as well. For context: I deal with ROCD and SOCD but I do identify as straight and am in a (happy) relationship with a man. What often triggers me is memories about childhood and adolescences about having the groinal toward nudity in porn or music videos. Because I can’t deny having watched other things than straight porn and experimenting with porn I simply can’t stop trying to figure out what that might have meant and if i deep down have actually a other sexual orientation than the one that I feel comfortable identifying with. I only hear people talking about random triggers but never the REAL memory of arousal to pornography and so on.
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