Mae1214
- Date posted
- 2y
Not well
I hate this disease. It’s robbed me of every ounce of happiness. I am scared to go near my daughter. I want to cry all the time. Please make it stop. How am I gonna go on like this. My baby!
anam anam
- Date posted
- 2y
I’m in a relapse right now. I am having a really hard time being around my kids as well. Baby steps. Try to resist/stop compulsions. This is where I am at.
Movies97xMovies97x
- Date posted
- 2y
Post Partum OCD babe also I really am struggling with this eve 6 years after birth my baby is my life but OCD is this cruel ass bully that will absolutely latch on to the things you love the most I adore my child more than life itself but this OCD tries telling me my baby isn't okay when I know he is HELP!!!!
Mae1214Mae1214
- Date posted
- 2y
@Movies97x My baby is 4. One thought triggered this outrageous relapse. I cannot do this.
Jennica B.Jennica B.
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
@Mae1214 Don’t let ocd keep you from your life! Take control! I’d talk to a therapist asap. Mine has helped me so much! I know how scary it can be but life does get way better with help!
Mae1214Mae1214
- Date posted
- 2y
@Jennica B. 🤗
Jennica B.Jennica B.
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
Getting my kids ready for school I would shake fearing I wouldn’t be present and I’d lose control. I had so many ocd thoughts daily I couldn’t breath. When I talked to my therapist I saw hope again.
Movies97xMovies97x
- Date posted
- 2y
Yep same heresweeteart mixed in with spiritual OCD and existentional is torture, Trust that it's because your brain knows you love your baby more than anything OCD is a cruel bully starve the monster have you tried any ERP exercises? Vids kn YouTube with Dr Nathan Peterson and Patrick Mcgrsth with show you some really good techniques I'm in relapse too but really trying sending huge Hugs make YOU GOT THIS
Mae1214Mae1214
- Date posted
- 2y
@Movies97x How do you deal with being near your child? I woke up shaking this morning to get her ready for her last day of school.
Jennica B.Jennica B.
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
Remember YOU are in control. It doesn’t feel like that but you are! Ocd can’t make you do anything. Be near your daughter! The thoughts you have just show how much you don’t want to do something bad to her so you won’t!
Mae1214Mae1214
- Date posted
- 2y
@Jennica B. No no I don’t want hurt her I just can’t stop obsessing about her or her gender identity. Everything she does makes me question if she’s who she is….and I will love her regardless but it’s like I need to know!! I can’t take it!
Mae1214Mae1214
- Date posted
- 2y
Torture!!! Debilitating torture!
Jennica B.Jennica B.
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
@Mae1214 Ocd is a bitch. It will never let you he happy until you don’t fight it anymore. Sit with the uncomfortable of not knowing. It’s hard as fu$& but with a therapists help you can do it!
Mae1214Mae1214
- Date posted
- 2y
Thank you All For responding and not making me feel like an asshole because of this stupid obsession. It’s so stupid. It’s so irrational. It just feels really really real especially cause it’s attached itself to her. Does that make any sense?!
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- Date posted
- 20w
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I have to be alone with my children tomorrow and I'm scared. Harm OCD has me panicking and ruminating. I don't want to hurt my babies they mean everything to me. I keep fighting for them, I got a better job for them and I want to create a better life for them. I'm so afraid that I might hurt them so I need to be away from them but I also don't want to be away from them. The thoughts and images are so much. I'd rather die before I hurt them. Accepting the uncertainty of possibly hurting them is not something I can accept or live with. And it doesn't help having existential ocd because that says none of it matters anyway. I just want to be the old me, I hate this disorder I hate this disease I hate me for having these thoughts. I'm sorry for ranting. I just need to get it out. I hate this worry disorder!
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- Date posted
- 18w
I don’t want to do this anymore
I’m struggling so much, I don’t know what’s changed. I was doing so well for a solid two months and now it’s been over a month of just my lowest point. My bf has gotten upset at how much I do compulsions and it’s taxing him too. I can’t imagine how hard it is to be my partner right now. I feel exhausted I’m tired of my OCD finding new things to obsess or worry over. I’m so TIRED of getting stuck on technicalities. I’m so exhausted with the constant intrusive thoughts and intrusive thinking. I’m so sick of how compulsive I get when I’m so riddled with anxiety. I don’t want to keep pushing. It feels pointless if my life is going to be a constant loop of ups and extreme lows. I feel like such a disgusting, embarrassing person. I don’t want love because I don’t feel like I deserve it. I don’t want patience or understanding because it makes me feel so guilty. Like no one is understanding how bad of person I could truly be. I’m so lost and tired of this
Anony1314
- Date posted
- 17w
I was a normal mom five months ago. Really sad
One mistake with my POCD thoughts and compulsions, and now I'm a terrible mom. I was amazing five months ago. Now I feel like I'm what I've always feared I'd be. I hate POCD. I just want to be a mom. I really do. I really need some support today
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