I’ve been in a long relationship with this guy and I love him so much like I really want to marry him everything about him is perfect l. I suffer from hocd and when I’m not worrying abt it I love my life but hocd is ruining everything I’m constantly living with anxiety and I get panick attacks over the stupidest stuff like seeing a pretty girl. I don’t want this to ruin my life or my relationship because I’m so happy with him and I love him so much but these compulsive thoughts are making me go crazy. I also have never told anyone about my hocd. Can anyone relate

I have been in a happy relationship with my boyfriend for over a year. He is always there to help me with my anxiety he is amazing. The past few months I started having these HOCD thoughts. But I have not been to a therapist. Anytime I see a woman I get the “gronial response” I am very afraid these thoughts are real and I don’t love my boyfriend. This has effected our intimate relationship. I feel like anytime we get intimate I get afraid I won’t get turned on because I think I am lesbian and then I don’t get as turned on as I could. I don’t know what to do or how to make the thoughts go away and I don’t want to lose my boyfriend.

I have a boyfriend and I love him so much, but HOCD has been driving me insane since the moment we started dating. I can’t every scroll through Instagram without having to touch myself to every fucking girl I see and it makes me nauseous and depressed all at once. I hate it more than I’m able to describe and I like BOYS , but it’s so so hard to maintain a relationship with this constant feeling of guilt . I don’t like girls but since I HAVE to touch myself to them, it’s a natural reaction to have some form of groundless response which only makes matters worse considering the fact that now I have to convince myself that I had that reaction only because I was touching myself and not because I was turned on by girls. Can anyone relate because I’m going insane !!

I’m so afraid I might be lesbian. I was very anxious at first but it started to calm down. I’m only 15 and I have a boyfriend I love. At least I think I do, I always chose to question everything and over analyze. I found out about hocd and it described everything I was feeling. I’d take test and read articles like “am I lesbian” but I have never fantasied a girl or wanted to be with a girl sexually or romantically. But what if I’m in denial? I do think girls are physically attractive but I never crushed on a girl. I have always crushed on boys. And liked being with them. I’m just so lost. My anxiety about it had calmed down. But the question is still there sometimes. Earlier today, I found a girl pretty and I got scared thinking that meant something. Then I read about women who have married men, but they know they’re lesbian. I’m scared that that’ll Happen to me. I don’t want to be lesbian. No disrespect. But I just want to be happy. I think I’ve suffered from ocd before. Tell me anyone if I’m wrong. But I used to have thoughts of that my boyfriend would murder me in the future because of theses videos that triggered me. It caused me so much pain and felt so real. That I eventually started to think I’d murder my mom and sister for no reason. I felt so helpless. But I got through it. I hope I get through this. Please any advice? Is this hocd?? Does anyone else feel this way?