I’ve been in a long relationship with this guy and I love him so much like I really want to marry him everything about him is perfect l. I suffer from hocd and when I’m not worrying abt it I love my life but hocd is ruining everything I’m constantly living with anxiety and I get panick attacks over the stupidest stuff like seeing a pretty girl. I don’t want this to ruin my life or my relationship because I’m so happy with him and I love him so much but these compulsive thoughts are making me go crazy. I also have never told anyone about my hocd. Can anyone relate

It’s ok if you can’t get a therapist I don’t know have one. I’ve been dealing with hocd for almost 9 months now :( It’s not fun but I am at a point where the thoughts don’t bother me as much as before. What I did was just let the thoughts be there don’t push them away or try to stop them. Just let them be them. This whole week for me has been amazing, the thoughts barely bother me. I don’t check to see if I like girls as much as I used to. All these small accomplishments help me to keep pushing! Be stronger than ocd. Don’t ruminate. Also erp helps, if your ocd doesn’t want you to listen to a certain song because it relates to your ocd, listen to it. Do things ocd doesn’t want you to do. Trigger anxiety and sit with it!!

I can definitely relate. Best thing you can do is find an OCD therapist who specializes in ERP

You should check in with your college to see if they have mental health services (most do) but they may not have an OCD specialist on staff. There’s online therapy available but depending on your budget that may or may not be feasible. I would definitely recommend buying some books on OCD and workbooks on CBT so you can gain some new skills and understanding on your own. https://ocdla.com/ocdreadings

Thank you sm I’m abt to go to college and idk what to do abt that I don’t think I would be able to pay for one that’s why I started using this app