LaloCD6

Date posted: 2y

TW: Masturbation

Do your intrusive thoughts happen while you’re pleasuring yourself…? It feels so scary it’s like if I was pleasuring myself bc of the thoughts… The other day something weird happened like I even tried to pleasuring myself about my intrusive thoughts to see if that would really made me feel something but while doing it I was so sad like I forced myself to it just so my brain will shut up… Now all I can do is cry cause I’m scared that means I finally accept the truth otherwise I couldn’t force myself… That makes me want to throw up

Sexual Orientation OCD

blazed

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

Yes, that happens to me too! They can come up at any moment. Although, you were testing yourself which is a compulsion and will make you feel worse in the long run. You were distressed by the thoughts, so I think deep down you know who you truly are, but OCD is being very loud in your face. To take away its power, start by reducing your compulsions.

LaloCD6

Date posted: 2y

@blazed The thing I don’t understand is why I forced myself to think about it does it mean deep down I want it to think about it at this moment ?

blazed

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@LolaG Even if you think about it on purpose, it doesn’t mean anything. It’s totally normal to do that, I do it too! But thoughts are just thoughts.

MAY BE

Date posted: 2y

Did u just reply on my comment?

MAY BE

Date posted: 2y

Lolaz

LaloCD6

Date posted: 2y

@MAY BE Yeah ?

MAY BE

Date posted: 2y

No I was just asking f u replied to my comment or blazed comment?

andrea_sam730

Date posted: 31w

I’m dealing with this exact situation and it only happens in context of intrusive thoughts like I’ve never purposely thought of an inappropriate thought but it feels almost as if like I’m self washing myself because of the thought and then immediately afterward I panicked like crazy

LaloCD6

Date posted: 31w

@andrea_sam730 FYI, this post was one year ago, and now I’m on recovery and I don’t even think about it that much, it happened sometimes but trust me you won’t even pay attention to it anymore It s gonna be okay, I know it takes time but you’ll be okay. I’m still with my bf since almost 5 years now, despite this episode of crippling OCD and I love him so much ! Even if when I had this subtype I felt like I wasn’t in love with him, OCD is such a good liar !

andrea_sam730

Date posted: 31w

@LaloCD6 I’m so glad you’re feeling better. That kind of gives me hope because Girl like I’m struggling a lot. I have POC D and I haven’t been eating. I haven’t been sleeping well been crying non-stop because I don’t know this thing of the situation. I’ve been kind new for me I’ve been having intrusive thoughts like regarding I believe incest and about little children and I remember the specific time like I was doing whatever that felt pleased to me and I got an intrusive thought and it felt like as if I was self pleasuring myself because of the thought literally and then I immediately started to panic so like I feel like I’m going insane 😓

andrea_sam730

Date posted: 31w

@LaloCD6 Like I really related when you said like it felt like you’re like self pleasuring yourself because of the thought because that’s what it felt like for me in the moment :/

Anonymousssssss

Date posted: 25w

Idk what to do

Hey yall, having a tough time. I’ve been struggling with intrusive thoughts while I self pleasure and it GENUIENLY feels like I enjoy them for whatever reason. And then now about half an hour later it’s like okay it’s a sexual thought but I might not actually like it. Idk I just really hate myself, because I basically genuinely liked it in the moment

Anonymousssssss

Date posted: 21w

Intrusive thoughts while self pleasuring

Last night I was self pleasuring. I didn’t set out to think about anything weird but as I was doing it some pocd thoughts were in my brain. I did not get off to them, but I could have. Idk why that is but it is. Idk what to do and idk why I am this way. Is there some science about the brain while aroused or is it possible that the more gross or taboo something is I can like it?? Idk, just want to know if anyone can relate.

andrea_sam730

Date posted: 21w

Intrusive thoughts during self intimacy

Today has been really hard I feel like I can’t even breathe I feel like a pedo for real :( whenever i think during my alone time i try and coexist with it? but when i decided to think and think i panic and panic more and more i start feel more guilty guys I can’t take this anymore bc when I kinda feel certain it fades aways i think logically i know i probably am ok :( but it’s so scary for me what if i did actually act on the thought and I didn’t realize? And now reflecting it ???

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