- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
Is this a compulsion?
My mind keeps telling me I’m attracted to women and bi and I constantly recite in my mind I’m straight and it feels wrong? False attraction towards woman no longer give me anxiety and confuses me. I feel like I have to identify as bisexual. I had the fear of lesbian and bisexuality years ago and I got over it twice. And ofc it’s back as I’m doing erp with my femal therapist cus I got a thought that said I was attracted to her. Ever since that day, the sticky thought was STICKYYYY. I’m just confused why it’s not giving me as much distress and anxiety as before. These thoughts are always in my head and I have ocd. Like my mind gives me anxiety when I say “ I am straight”… wtf? I’m scared I’m gonna develop the fear of being straight now… does this mean I’m actually bisexual? I have always identified as straight. I’m just confused and no longer want to erp. I don’t know if this a compulsion. When I say “ I am Bisexual” it feels right? I don’t want to be bisexual. I’m sorry for ranting not looking for reassurance but I keep imagining myself about filling out a form asking for my sexual orientation and hence I imagine scenarios. Are these false attractions even false? My brain is buzzing. Why am I not avoiding females as I use to? I keep compulsively checking