spookycupcake
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Can somebody please respond to my previous post
I’m sorry to be annoying but I feel like a horrible girlfriend and I really don’t want to break up with my boyfriend but I’m afraid it’s not fair to him
songbird1songbird1
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 2y
Omg! It’s like you are reading my mind! I’ve been going through the EXACT same thing. I ended up telling my bf about it, which helped me a little bit, but the thoughts are still there. The fact that we are having the exact same thoughts makes me feel that we are both deep into ROCD. Obviously, I’m not a therapist, but that’s what it sounds like. I’m going to get therapy for this soon, and hopefully I can get some answers as to how to confront this. I hope you get some answers soon, too!
spookycupcakespookycupcake
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- 2y
@songbird1 Oh wow that’s crazy I’m glad we can relate! I have told my boyfriend before too that I overthink when he isn’t looking his best and it helps me to not feel like I’m lying to him so much that way although it could probably easily become a compulsion for us. Are you planning on seeing a therapist that specializes in OCD? I’ve had my therapist for years for general talk therapy and he hasn’t been super helpful with ocd-oriented stuff even though I literally have every symptom of rocd
songbird1songbird1
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@spookycupcake Same here! I booked a free call for today, so yes!
spookycupcakespookycupcake
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- 2y
@songbird1 I’ve thought about doing a free NOCD call but I haven’t yet. Hope it goes well!
songbird1songbird1
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- 2y
@spookycupcake It went well! You should do it!
spookycupcakespookycupcake
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@songbird1 That’s awesome I think I’ll save it for the next time I’m struggling really badly
songbird1songbird1
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- 2y
I couldn’t find the previous post. Can you copy and paste it here?
spookycupcakespookycupcake
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- 2y
@songbird1 I felt so much better, like I was really recovering but then I got another spike again where I was really triggered a week or so ago about one of my friendships and removed him (the friend) from everything and since then I have been getting triggered about past flings and stuff. I also noticed my sex drive went down and the weird part is I feel like I’ve had less attraction and felt less towards my boyfriend since then too but without much anxiety about it :( it’s such an uncomfortable feeling and I think the reason I haven’t had much anxiety about it is because I tell myself it’s okay and normal. But idk if it really is. I often don’t think my boyfriend looks that good whether it’s his face or his body and it makes me so sad I know it would break his heart. It feels like I’m deceiving him because it happens even when I’m not going through an anxiety spike. And because at the beginning of our relationship we had this whole conflict where he felt like I wasn’t sexually attracted to him. His body type wasn’t my “type” so maybe I really wasn’t but I told him it wasn’t true until I finally confessed and said his body wasn’t my type but I grew more attracted to him when I fell in love with him because I saw an article where someone had that happen and I felt like it clicked with me but WHAT IF I JUST SAID IT BECSUSE IT WAS THE EASY ANSWER WHAT IF INWAS NEEVER ATTRACTED TO HIM But then sometimes when I feel like I’m in a mentally healthy state, it doesn’t matter to me when I don’t think he looks good and I’m happy and have butterflies when he looks really cute. But it just feels like it’s way too often that I don’t think he looks good 🙁
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