It sounds legit wrong now? Like why does bisexuality seem to not give me anxiety as it once did before? I’m so confused. I get no anxiety but false attraction. I’m super super confused
Me too
@HongAnh What’s ur experience? I’m just stressed cus I have no anxiety so it feels like I’m actually bisexual and not straight? It’s confusing me
I use to recite it but I can’t anymore due to erp 😭. My mind will sometimes throw out, “my wife” instead of “my husband” and I correct the thought to “my husband” honestly, I don’t even bother correcting anymore. It just gets more stuck when I correct it.
@68273 I want to overcome it huhu
@68273 why don’t you recite it anymore? Is it cus it’s a compulsion. I’m scared I’m denial
@HongAnh Have you tried erp
@68273 Idk how to do it
@HongAnh Expose yourself to triggers w out your usual ways of coping ie compulsions. For me, I read stories of people coming out, read about the pride movement, watch a show w same sex content, etc etc. I’m still working on these exposures. More importantly, don’t do compulsions
@68273 Do u have attraction to it
@HongAnh You mean did I get false attraction or groinals ?
@68273 Yeah
@HongAnh Yes but the response to these symptoms are, maybe I am, maybe I am not.
@68273 Hơ do u feel now
@HongAnh I kinda stopped doing difficult Exposures and just living life. I go to therapy tomorrow as follow up. I know I’m not a lesbian, but I’m still scared of being bisexual so it’s something I have to keep working on. The groinals are gone and so is false attraction. But I have to keep Exposing myself so I don’t go back to square one
@68273 Yes please teach me how to stop the false attractions. Bisexual is so tricky cus so many women realize in the future that they’d w bisexual and indenial… it scares me
@Anonymous Honestly, I don’t dare to get pergant because I scare that I can become les after giving birth😢
@HongAnh Can you get a therapist?
@68273 I don’t have enough money
Yes, it’s a compulsion
Instead, I was told that I should say, “maybe I am”
But maybe, I am not
I've always found women pretty and admired them since I was younger, never wanted to be with them or anything. I always pictured having a boyfriend and my crushes were always boys. I have a boyfriend now but because this has happened I feel nothing towards him or any men. To be honest I'm so exhausted I don't feel much at all, there was so much anxiety at the start and now there is none. Does that mean I have accepted the thoughts. My mind keeps going you were suppressed all these years but I do find women pretty so that's what's making it worse. Am I just in denial and being delusional? I never doubted my sexuality before this I always considered myself to be straight but I feels like my mind has been twisted and can't remember any attraction to guys but can remember thinking girls are pretty? Does this mean it's all real? I don't know anymore
I feel sick to my stomach, a few days ago I knew I was straight and could picture my life with my bf again. The anxiety has really lessend and Im more depressed now. I'm 100% convinced I am lesbian even tho I have never had sexual attraction to women, found them pretty but never wanted to be with them. My mind is only picturing me being with women now and it feels like a pit in my stomach. I don't feel emotion now, I'm also on my period. I don't want to be lesbian. I want to be with my boyfriend and have the life I pictured with him. My memory is so dissorted right now. I don't think there's anything wrong with being lesbian, it's just not for me and now that makes me feel like I'm homophobic.
I’m trying to live with uncertainty but it doesn’t feel right. The “I may or may not be bi/gay” really sucks because I can’t stop ruminating, analyzing, or checking. This especially sucks because I feel like literally EVERYTHING in my life leads to the fact that I’m a fraud which feels horrible. I can’t even talk to my friends the way I used to without feeling like I’m lying about myself. The false attraction and loss of attraction to men is literally horrible because now I feel like the life i fantasized for myself isn’t something I want.
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