Are there any moms out there who are struggling with pocd? I wanted a child my whole life since I was a little girl but pocd is ruining everything. Can anyone share their story?
I understand how you feel because I’ve always wanted to settle down and have a kid eventually with my partner but now I feel like I don’t deserve any of that and feel so scared about it now. I read a story on here about a mom who had POCD with a couple of kids and reading her story did make me feel a bit better about the whole thing
i don’t have a story but for the longest time i wanted to be a mother soooo bad, i wanted a big family and would have happily got pregnant anytime, it was the one thing i wanted most in the world. and then pocd came and it completely made me not want kids because i’m so scared of hurting them :(. but then i realised that i shouldn’t let ocd dictate my life. one day i will have kids, it will be hard, but i’ll be able to do it. and so will you ❤️ don’t let pocd take away your dreams. you can do it lovely, and you’ll be an amazing mum and will love that child so much. you’re stronger than what your pocd says xx
@PoWarrior This honestly made me emotional, thank you so much for this❤️.
Hi! I’m a mom who has pocd. It’s very hard I’ve always cared for kids and I never had bad thoughts about them but starting 2020 I started having terrible thoughts surrounding kids I remember the first thought I had I was terrified I was saying to myself omg no and it gradually got worse I even told my mom I need to get help for these thoughts and I never specified what the thoughts were because I was ashamed i eventually told my husband about my thoughts and they lessened for awhile then once I had a baby almost 7 months ago he’s the best he’s an awesome baby but I started having terrible thoughts and images about him and I’ve struggled to change his diaper or give him a bath unbuckle the bottom clasp of his seatbelt it’s been so hard to take care of him because it gives me so much anxiety because I always feel like I’m doing something wrong I genuinely think I’m just a normal mom who has ocd and it has really attacked who I am as a person because I care about kids and I’ve always wanted a baby this subset of ocd is very stigmatized people I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. I just try to make it through the day but i believe I’ll be fully recovered one day. I hope this helped ! You’ll be fine when you have a baby but I do recommend therapy before having a baby. Sorry if my reply is kinda all over the place wishing you luck in recovery
@Feeling sad like I should How are you doing now??
I have HOCD and my biggest dream is becoming a mother. However, with my intrusive thoughts/images I’ve stopped trying to conceive. Is there any other people that has been going through this same fear?
Please please help me. I need support. I just need someone to be up front with me. Tell me the truth. I want to get past it all. I'm struggling STRUGGLING today. My mind is telling me I'm the only one who is dealing with something like this. Idk why I did my biggest fear. I was put on a new medication when this happened which caused me to spiral, my thoughts to be more often, and have insomnia. I have been diagnosed with POCD as well. I woke up in the middle of the night when my child was laying completely cross my chest. I was breathing and having groinal sensations. My mind told me that I assaulted her by this, and I was going to prison for it. My thoughts started going like this, "you're already bad might as well do something else", "no sense in stopping now" "you can finally do what you've always wanted", "what would you do if you could do anything to cause harm" So I had to think of what to do in the moment. The only thing I could think to do was move my elbow towards my child's groin. In the moment it felt like I really wanted to do this. I proceeded to do so, and my elbow touched her groin. I immediately told my child to move off me. I then went back to sleep. When I woke up, I began panicking, confessing to a family member what happened, and crying immensely. I feel like I failed as a mother. I'm in such distress since I started sleeping on the floor to avoid it from happening again, and I got off the medication. I'm so much better OCD wise since I got off the meds. I was the BEST mom months ago before this happened. The thoughts have always bothered me, and I was always scared I would give in and act on them. I'm living my worst nightmare. I feel alone. Felt so wanted in the moment and SO real. Ugh. Could someone just give me some support? (edited)
I just wanted to ask any mothers their experience with having children & the positive experiences they’ve had despite their diagnosis (even the small moments of joy)? I have always yearned to have children & grow a family however recently OCD has made me question this desire (though when I’m back to thinking rationally my heart knows I’m meant for motherhood). though I’m not oblivious to how difficult it must be, I thought it would be nice to see the good amongst the bad, not just for me but for anyone else feeling a similar way 🫶🏼
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