I’m pansexual and non-binary but I worry that, I’m straight and female... is there anyone else going through this?

You can rant! OCD is so confusing. And it’s hard to find people with this specific theme. Since my theme started I have tried identifying as non-binary or genderqueer (privately, never coming out) but I never felt sure. My intrusive thoughts made it impossible to know because they would scream at me that I was lying and had to “admit” who I really was. So I would admit it to myself over and over (hello compulsions) and then at the end I’d start feeling like a woman again. But only briefly because the whole cycle would repeat. It can never settle on an identity that will last so I go about my day feeling like any number of identities at any given moment depending on what my intrusive thoughts are doing. Right now I’m doing my best to feed each question with uncertainty and just let the thoughts run. Some days are better than others. But the good days always seem to be the ones where I feel like a woman, so I’m trying to take that as a bigger “sign” than all the thoughts that make me doubtful and anxious and scared. If you feel good and confident and alive when you identify as non binary and the idea of being NOT non binary scares you and throws you into endless doubts and feels like something you’re being pulled into against your will like your mind is being hijacked: you’re non binary. The rest is OCD. Also I think any good psychologist should accept how you identify, regardless of having OCD. If you came in saying “I’m afraid I’m non binary” then they would be right to question it. But if you say “I am non binary, but I get scared I’m not” they should know that you in fact are non binary and the other part is the OCD.

Me except I’m straight and female and worry that I’m not...

?? currently suffering gender identity OCD but I’m worrying I’m a trans man when I’ve identified as a woman my whole life. How’s it going for you?

In the past I identified as straight female, but I know that OCD can make you think you’re things you’re not, that’s why I worry I’m not pansexual and not non-binary, especially since I’ve come out too. It isn’t my worse subtype of OCD but does trigger my other subtypes, which is annoying. I started treatment female, worrying I was trans or non-binary, but now it’s the other way around. And I don’t want to tell my psychologist that I’m non-binary, because I’m worried they’ll tell me it’s OCD talking... sorry for the mini rant, it’s kinda been bottling up inside me