OCDduck
- Date posted
- 5y ago
pureolifepureolife
- Date posted
- 5y ago
You can rant! OCD is so confusing. And it’s hard to find people with this specific theme. Since my theme started I have tried identifying as non-binary or genderqueer (privately, never coming out) but I never felt sure. My intrusive thoughts made it impossible to know because they would scream at me that I was lying and had to “admit” who I really was. So I would admit it to myself over and over (hello compulsions) and then at the end I’d start feeling like a woman again. But only briefly because the whole cycle would repeat. It can never settle on an identity that will last so I go about my day feeling like any number of identities at any given moment depending on what my intrusive thoughts are doing. Right now I’m doing my best to feed each question with uncertainty and just let the thoughts run. Some days are better than others. But the good days always seem to be the ones where I feel like a woman, so I’m trying to take that as a bigger “sign” than all the thoughts that make me doubtful and anxious and scared. If you feel good and confident and alive when you identify as non binary and the idea of being NOT non binary scares you and throws you into endless doubts and feels like something you’re being pulled into against your will like your mind is being hijacked: you’re non binary. The rest is OCD. Also I think any good psychologist should accept how you identify, regardless of having OCD. If you came in saying “I’m afraid I’m non binary” then they would be right to question it. But if you say “I am non binary, but I get scared I’m not” they should know that you in fact are non binary and the other part is the OCD.
blairwblairw
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Me except I’m straight and female and worry that I’m not...
pureolifepureolife
- Date posted
- 5y ago
?? currently suffering gender identity OCD but I’m worrying I’m a trans man when I’ve identified as a woman my whole life. How’s it going for you?
OCDduckOCDduck
- Date posted
- 5y ago
In the past I identified as straight female, but I know that OCD can make you think you’re things you’re not, that’s why I worry I’m not pansexual and not non-binary, especially since I’ve come out too. It isn’t my worse subtype of OCD but does trigger my other subtypes, which is annoying. I started treatment female, worrying I was trans or non-binary, but now it’s the other way around. And I don’t want to tell my psychologist that I’m non-binary, because I’m worried they’ll tell me it’s OCD talking... sorry for the mini rant, it’s kinda been bottling up inside me
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flippy15
- Date posted
- 25w ago
So
I just want to know the difference of someone who is gay vs someone who is just questioning bc of ocd. Like would you hear I’m gay im gay over and over and over again in your head but it didn’t feel right? But when I say this is a waste of my time im of course straight it feels like im lying but I know im not attracted to women at all I am certain of that. But picking a label is what i can’t settle on so this is my ocd or not
Roses2021
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 24w ago
It’s been a while but
The thoughts still exist. For the last couple months I’ve been able to say I don’t care and lean into the comfort of being uncertain. Im having a tough time with some things personally right now and guess what decides to show up… Anyways, I’ve been trying to get used to the fact that maybe I’m bisexual with a romantic preference for men (I’m married and love my husband) but when you start going through your compulsions it’s soooo easy for everything to blur out. To my knowledge I’ve never had a crush on a woman but I’ve most definitely watched same sex porn and have thought women are hot and beautiful, then come the thoughts about comp het and how I’ve never been an overly sexual person so that MUST mean something. Ugh idk, just looking for someone to chat with I guess!
Dead girl wa...
- Date posted
- 23w ago
I’m confused
Ok so I’m a 17 year old female, and I’ve always thought I was straight. But I just really want to know how you would know the difference between so-ocd and actually questioning your sexuality. I have nothing against the LGBTQ community (in fact I am very much a token straight friend, lol) but I saw a video about comp-het recently and it sort of felt like what I was experiencing. I don’t want to be gay, I want to be with men, I want to like men, I’ve always liked men, but now I’m questioning whether or not that’s real? Because people can be gay but not want to be right? I’m single and I always have been. I think women are gorgeous, but when I try to imagine actually having any sort of romantic or sexual relationship with a woman it feels wrong, at least most of the time it does? Sometimes I’m less sure, and I’ve never been particularly boy crazy. I’ve liked maybe 2 or 3 people in my life, (not to say I’ve never found other guys attractive, but it doesn’t seem to be as often as most people) I have no particular reason to be afraid of being gay, very supportive family, safe area ect, but I don’t want to be, does that mean this is ocd, I don’t know what’s going on every time I say I’m straight I feel like I’m lying, but that might just be because I think about it so much. The idea of being with a woman doesn’t feel like something I would want, but is that just because I don’t want to want it? People online say things with so much sureness, if you feel like this it means this. Ect.
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