I am so sick of my mind being so consumed by ocd .. - I hate how if I get an ache or pain I’ll assume I’ve got a brain tumour or a terminal illness. I can’t just have a headache and it be a headache. I look for constant reassurance in this kind of stuff. - I hate how badly obsessed I’ve become with avoiding anything that contains any form of lemon in the ingredients. - I can’t eat chicken because it’s not a safe food - I can’t eat fresh foods if they’re not eaten as soon as they’re bought (milk, bread, cheese) - I can’t eat eggs because I’m scared I’ll get food poisoning. - I can’t eat from anywhere I’ve not ate before and unless it had a food hygiene of 4 and above I can’t touch it or go anywhere near it. - I can’t dye my hair because I’m terrified the toxins are going to eat away through my scalp into my brain and kill me. - I can’t wear nail varnish because I’m scared the toxins are going to burn through my nose. - I can’t take medication or pain killers because I’m scared somebody’s “tampered with it” - I can’t drink a drink that’s been out of my sight for 1 minute. I bin and waste so much food and drinks because of this - I’m scared of being drugged although I could literally have something closing the drinking hole on it. Because I still “don’t trust it”. - I can’t use any bleach products because I’m scared that it’ll soak through things and then later on if I touch something it’ll make me ill. - I’m scared of overheating in my sleep and dying - I HATE ocd I hate the way it’s got me where it wants me. - I am so distraught and heart broken that it’s gotten this bad. I fucking despise this so much and there’s absolutely no way out no escape nothing

Contamination OCD

pureolife

Date posted: 6y

You just created a great list that could easily become your fear hierarchy! With OCD, the only way out is through. Rate how much anxiety each of these causes and arrange them from least to most. Start from the least and expose yourself to the situation again and again until it no longer causes anxiety. Then move up the hierarchy. I know it probably feels hopeless right now, but you actually just showed a lot of insight into your fears and triggers and that’s SO useful when it comes to beating OCD. You’re stronger and more capable than you think!

loveisall

Date posted: 6y

I don’t know if this helps. But I’ve shared some of the same feelings you listed. For example, about the hair dye, bleach products. The fact that you are acknowledging that the OCD has you where it wants you and how aggravated it’s gotten you, shows that you have the energy to take it on. I think you can do really well with managing your symptoms if you practice ERP and see or continue to see a therapist. Honestly, times I have gotten better have been times when I felt super low with it.

MissLovely

Date posted: 6y

I get most of the ones you mention. I worry about allergic reactions to all that stuff though.. I can't eat eggs either and I'm a vegetarian. I avoid a bubble gum drink because I caught a vomming bug the same day I drank from that drink so I haven't bought it since. Ocd is so hard, I know someone from the clinic I'm about to stop going to with the same fear as you of being drugged in a drink etc. I understand ❤️ I'm so tired right now haven't slept in so long yet again and dreading getting up soon. But I pray for all of us to get better xxx

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