I keep getting intrusive thoughts saying im bisexual and its making me feel like im not anxious about it… like its making the intrusive thoughts feel like they are “passive” in my mind and less loud and obnoxious in my mind… what do i do…?
Nothing. Just let them be there
@OCDcanfuckoff I was checking my heartrate between seeing a guy people consider “attractive” and a girl i found attractive. I had a slightly faster heart-rate when i was looking at a guy… i don’t ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual at all…
@OCDcanfuckoff Sorry… i forgot to add that info in the previous post…
@Givenup You had a higher heart rate most likely because your anxiety was spiking.
@OCDcanfuckoff But I wasnt feeling overly anxious… its making me think it was attraction when i dont ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual at all… i dont ever want to ever be attracted to men in any way…
@Givenup You don't always know when it's anxiety. Anxiety can show up as anxious thoughts or increased heart rate.
@OCDcanfuckoff I just hope its anxiety and not attraction… i dont evrr want to ever be attracted to guys in any way…
@Givenup I want to reassure you, but that will only make it worse. All I can say, is you have to learn to be okay with being uncertain of your sexuality. Trust me, reassurance only makes it worse. What you do, is stop trying to find the answer. As you pay less attention to finding the answer, the less you'll have these unsettling thoughts. It takes time.
@OCDcanfuckoff The increased heartbeat was slight but noticeable… i dont ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual at all…
@OCDcanfuckoff @OCDcanfuckoff when i was posting about my hocd and my slightly faster heart rate, someone told me “then just dont date guys” and i felt like they were implying that i was homosecusl or bisexual without my hocd and the person said “you maybe are i dont know” and its made me anxious a lot… i dont ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual in any way… i dont ever want to ever ever be homosexual or bisexual at all in any way…
@OCDcanfuckoff Its like my intrusive thoughts… “adapt”… anything that sounds homosexual my hocd will give me thoughts about… like i could speak in korean and i would get an intrusive hocd thought in korean, or i could be looking at a woman and i would get a sudden intrusive hocd sexual thought thats detailed… like i seriously dont understand why this is happening to me… and the intrusive feelings, and the slightly faster heartbeat when i see a shirtless guy compared to a normal woman that im attracted to (plus giving me automatic intrusive thoughts about men whenever beautiful girls are mentioned) makes this life a living hell…
@Givenup I know. It's difficult
@Givenup Your OCD will tell you the opposite of what you want. It's gonna tell you you are homosexual.
Also, I understand that you don't want that. As that is why you are being attacked by your OCD over it. It's scary, I know.
@OCDcanfuckoff I also have pocd and real events ocd… so its been a very tough journey for me these past three years…
@Givenup I bet. It's not easy. I have soocd harm OCD, pocd, rocd, and some other ones. I just wish there was an actual treatment that works. It's exhausting.
@OCDcanfuckoff Having real events ocd is the worst… because actual real events occured… i hate everything so much…
I haven’t been diagnosed with it, but I feel like nothing else describes me better. If you do have this feeling and thoughts, what are some ways to lower your anxiety ?
Like I can’t think straight. This is making me doubt everything I’ve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I don’t. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go “oh so you like it you must be gay” or the other one where I’m not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that I’ve had my whole life and my mind goes “see now you’re not into them you’re gay” like it’s so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or “a thing of the past”. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and it’s so weird. Today I’ve spent my whole day thinking about it like I’ve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just won’t let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
I struggle with HOCD or SOOCD. I’m a married young woman to an amazing husband. I’ve had this since I was 16 but it only came in flair ups. However this round started in October, and it’s been really rough and I would just break down all the time. I went up on my medication and I actually noticed a difference! My thoughts were still very present but I wasn’t really paying attention to them or giving them power. HOWEVER right when I thought I was getting better, my brain started feeling and saying to myself that I just know I am bi but you want to make excuses for it like “oh it’s normal to find someone hot since we as a society have an interpretation of what that looks like” or “I see the girl as myself and that’s what ‘turns’ me on” or “well I mean that girl looks kind of like a man” and it’s it’s making me spiral. I won’t ever come out as Bi as deep in my soul I don’t feel I am. I have always wanted to be with men sexually and romantically and that has not changed but my brain is making me believe I am and I just don’t want to admit it. Please help me, what has helped you?
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