Hocd

@PancakeBueno I also have pocd and real events ocd… i just posted about it…

@Givenup Continue with your therapy and you will see that it will get better!<3

@PancakeBueno Its like my intrusive thoughts… “adapt”… anything that sounds homosexual my hocd will give me thoughts about… like i could speak in korean and i would get an intrusive hocd thought in korean, or i could be looking at a woman and i would get a sudden intrusive hocd sexual thought thats detailed… like i seriously dont understand why this is happening to me… and the intrusive feelings, and the slightly faster heartbeat when i see a shirtless guy compared to a normal woman that im attracted to (plus giving me automatic intrusive thoughts about men whenever beautiful girls are mentioned) makes this life a living hell… I was checking my heartrate between seeing a guy people consider “attractive” and a girl i found attractive. I had a slightly faster heart-rate when i was looking at a guy… i don’t ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual at all… I dont ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual in any way in any way shape or form… i dont ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual at all…

@Givenup Please,stop seeking for reassurance.i know it's hard,after 4 years of Hocd I'm still doing it sometimes,but it makes your OCD stronger. You're not your thoughts.If you show that you are not afraid of them, they will leave, don't even react when they pop up in your head.

@PancakeBueno But i have real events ocd with my hocd too…

@Givenup It's difficult I know,I have it too.

@Givenup Heart rare will go up due to stress and anxiety more than it will from 'liking' someone so there's no reason you should use that as proof one way or another. You're just as likely to feel stressed by not finding someone attractive as you are worrying that you're finding someone attractive. If it helps you, I've recently just started suffering with this theme again after a long time without - but when you say about your mind adapting anything or everything, you're not wrong. Many years ago, I remember reading a Horoscope where it said something like 'you're going to find something out about yourself soon' and I caused a massive anxiety spike in me. Then I realised I had actually read the wrong starsign, lol. I don't even particularly believe in horoscopes, yet that was enough to panic me. Would be the same with random stuff like car licence plates. If I saw a registration like F123 AGG it would make me worry about why I noticed it immediately - as if it that had any bearing on anything.