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Hey I’m 19 as well and am about to turn 20 I have these thought everyday as well and just been suffering from hocd for few months even though it feels like a while with how torturous it is but we will get through this ? as hard as it might be we can do it
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I think what helps with me is to not focus on other people’s stories, but focus on my own. You may get over this in two weeks. Just because someone else struggled with it for 11 years doesn’t mean you have to.
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You are so much stronger than you think you are. You’ve made it this far and believe me when I say we are all so proud of you, because we know how hard it is. It will be hard and it is hard, yes. But you can and you will make it through this, and this will be something you have overcome?healing takes time
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I am sorry that you feel so sad. And I am sorry, in advance, if I sound rude for what I am going to say. OCD is not cancer - that is, there is not such a thing as overcoming it 10000000% (put as many zeroes as you wish) because is not an infectious disease. You will never be the person you used to be - Sorry but that's a truth. However, you can become a better person than you were before. The reason you will never hear that someone overcame OCD 1000000% is because the people who have recovered do not see it as having eliminated all fear but rather becoming stronger than their fears in a way they never imagined. If you wish to never feel fear in your life then you are shooting yourself on the foot. You are a human and you are bound to feel pain and fear for the rest of your life. However, you don't have to be controlled by it. People like us tend to lean to perfectionism - Your post is filled with it. Look at how many zeroes you wrote. And perfectionism is our damn Achilles heel. Before we can feel better we need to abandon our need for perfection and certainty - Which is the same thing.
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You're not hopeless. You have to work on it, and yes, there will be relapses, but you can't let it control your life. It's YOUR life. You are the sky and it is the clouds. You came before it. It can't survive without you. Some days will be clear skies and some days will be stormy, but you can't worry about the little cloud in the huge sky. You can't worry about the little urge to wash your hands or something, just focus on literally anything else! Don't let it scare you! Don't succumb to it!
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I have completely recovered from my childhood ocds ....HOCD is tough as the guilt and fear is enormous in this type ...but if you think you want recover completely and became ur previous one it will never happen as these types of thoughts are fuel for HOCD
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I’m hopeless
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i completely get what you’re going through; i’m going through the same thing. like you said, it freaks me out that most people say that it never goes away 100% but we get stronger and learn how to take the power away from the thoughts. but the thing is, it doesn’t matter if the thoughts don’t have power and don’t make me nervous anymore,,,, i don’t want them at all. even if they’re powerless. they’re just not things i want running through my head. I have HOCD too and i want to be able to have a husband or boyfriend without having a single thought about a woman or doubt or “what if i’m not meant to be with a guy”. but, that’s impossible. i’m still growing and trying to be ok with that. but also, every story is different and everybody is different. who knows, maybe you’ll overcome this 10000%!! you can’t predict the future and what will happen in days, months, or years so just focus on RIGHT NOW. i know it’s hard, but it’ll help you a lot and make this whole situation a little less overwhelming :)
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I have heard that in some cases it can go away 100% and spoke to people for who it has. They worked really hard for it but they did recover and kept up that recovery for decades (Some even 20+ years). Some examples of tbe internet are Ali Greymond and Mark Freeman who I think are free of it for about 10 years now. I don't understand why people act as if this isn't a thing. It is actually possible. And I don't mean to never feel fear again or have intrusive thoughts again, because before you had OCD you probably felt a bit of that too. Having the goal to never ever feel fear again is impossible. Just to normalise it again and keep recovery up. You won't be the same person as before you got OCD. You'll be stronger and probably won't worry about little things in life anymore after overcoming this huge monster. That's my guess anyway. This is an unpopular opinion, but I do believe in full recovery in the sense that you can desensitise to your OCD theme and live your life again to the extend that you used to. Depression naturally lifts for most people after OCD symptoms lift from what I've seen. Hope this gives you some hope :)
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It looks like I have touched some perfectionistic buttons here. - I stick to what I said: Wanting to exile those thought and feelings is like wanting to never ever fart again in your life. Of course your mind is going through a pretty severe indigestion right now and of course that indigestion can be cured - but to think that means never having stomach cramps, gas and reflux ever again in your life. Well, good luck with that.
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17f Just like the title says. I came to realization that I lost a whole year of life. I remembered my real event in the end of january of 2024. Since then my life has been a living hell. Also kinda made a couple new smaller events through this year. And I know I deserve it cause my event was actually bad. Even people without ocd on reddit agree it was bad. It's still ocd, but I deserve it probably. For this whole year I haven't had a day when I wouldn't think of it. It became my default state to constantly have it on my mind. I walked around, pretended to have fun, talked to people. Most of the time I wasn't really there, I was thinking about my event. My event haunts me when I'm awake, when I'm asleep. I spend this whole year either freaking out, being depressed, thinking on methods to off myself, ruminating, seeking reassurance or trying to distract myself with books, TV shows, social media or daydreaming. Literally barely engaged with reality. So it's so hard to believe a whole year passed... I can barely remember anything that happened during this year. I can't believe this is my life. Probably doesn't really matter cause I don't plan on staying there that long. There is no way I'm going to experience piece with myself. So I will be out in a year or so, since my plan requires some time. Finally will end it all. It just feels very weird. A whole year passed. I was so deep down in my head I didn't even notice. It's scary.
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since february i have "POcd". Initial symptoms were thoughts, but then I did a testing compulsion during an intimate time, and I spiraled ever since. I struggle with addiction to smut. I'm cutting that out, but I feel as if it is too late. Ive never experienced this much mental, and emotional anguish in my life. On my time on this application I have given advice to others, and helped around, but I wonder if that even applies to me. Millions of times I wish I could turn back time and be more careful. I want to prevent many things, including what led me to spiral into OCD in the first place. I'm surely having an OCD episode. I have gotten a diagnosis, but I'm still not sure. I feel evil, cause unlike many here, I tested on my body sensations and it backfired (twice) I know I'm not supposed to figure out why that is the case, but now I have to live with it for the rest of my life even if its something I don't desire. This is disgusting for me, it is abhorrent. I could've never seen this coming. Day by day I've become more fearful of living with this, "OCD". I was a normal person before this, I knew what I was attracted to, I know my preferences, so why did this come about? This is singlehandedly the most painful thing that has happened to me and I have nobody but myself to blame. I am scared of death but I also would'nt mind sleeping for years on end. My parents and brother were understanding of my situation, but I failed them regardless. I don't want them to see me this way, nor do I want them to learn more of my predicament. I'm cooked. I know it, Fin, thats all folks. I'm only 20 and I already have other diagnosed mental illness so I recklessly brought upon myself another one. Its agonizing to live through, I wish this on nobody, not even my worst enemy. I can't even identify myself at this point. Its tearing me apart.
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