Very Existential

Does anyone else ever feel like they are hyper aware and fixated on the passage of time? Like the fact that by the time you realize the present moment is happening it’s already the past and it makes everything seem meaningless. I’ve been obsessed over time and aging/the passage of time lately and can’t seem to shake it. I just want to feel/enjoy present again like I used too… Its super distressing/disassociating. First ever comment here. Thank you all!

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hellofolks

Date posted: 2y

yes. yes. 10000% 24/7. i think so hard ab history and the past and lives that have been lived and shir like that all the time. nostalgia kills me because its so difficult to comprehend that im not that age anymore and that the person i see in the mirror now is the same person i see in my memories. butbecause of it im like “i need to appreciate the present!” and end up “appreciating” it by worrying about being present

PizzaAndOCD

Date posted: 2y

@hellofolks Thanks for the reply! Good to know I’m not the only one. Sorry you’re going through this too though, it’s crazy stressful.

NotmeitstheD

Date posted: 2y

This was one of the first feelings of being different than my family. I remember obsessing at the age of 6 or 7 about any and every natural or human made disaster that happened until I had a stack of 20 books ranging from the titanic to the holocaust to the hindenburg I was convinced that if I didn’t read these things and become informed about them I would surely be in the next great disaster. And same with the future. I was creating a pre destiny in my head as a way to cope with the world around me and to just mentally feel like I had a purpose. So right now bringing those things up has just put me in the state of mind like why am I even writing this the present me isn’t even here I’m just assessing my past and future self AGAIN but I’ve never thought about those things until I read your post and how it’s always sort of your present self stepping out to investigate or acknowledge past and future so yeah like am I even here right now. Just kidding I know I am but holy existential fuck it’s wild

kvv430

Date posted: 8w

Yes this is 1000000000% me. How are you doing now?

This is me!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 14w

Aging and death anxiety

I’ve been perturbed for a couple of months now with incessant thoughts about aging and dying. I really am not sure what to do. This feels like other OCD themes, but also really different, because this time, what I’m afraid of is sure to happen. I will either die, or age and then die. It’s been so difficult to enjoy anything lately. I just want to pull a blanket over my head and wait until death comes. Has anyone else felt this way? I feel quite alone. I am trying to enjoy life, but I just remember that it will all be gone in a flash. Nothing really seems to help me feel better. The only escape I have is in my dreams where I can fantasize about never aging or dying. Or at least being able to rewind the clock to have more time.

toristjean

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 13w

Fixation on time/time is passing too fast

Hi all, I am in need of any advice/help I can get. Over the past year or so, I have gotten a good handle on my OCD. I even achieved OCD conqueror status with the help of my provider through NOCD! For awhile, I was doing really well. Unfortunately, during March/April I experienced some really bad triggers and overall, my OCD has ramped way back up. Recently, I have been hyperfixated on time and my perception of time. I am not sure what triggered it but now I am constantly checking the clock. I am scared that the days are fading away and there is a ticking clock I can't stop. Has anyone experienced this? Is there a way to stop this feeling of doom?

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kvv430

Date posted: 8w

Existential ocd/ time passing

I really need help. My ocd spiral has begun again over existential ocd…. That every second that passes becomes the past. Like my daughter will do something cute and my brain will go”thats in the past” it makes no sense but gives me panic attacks. I just want to enjoy my life. Anyone have this and have overcome it? Any help would be amazing!!

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