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OCD is the worst. (Vent)
I was on tik tok and on my fyp I saw a reddit video asking teachers what it was like to have a crush on a student. The teacher said she had a crush on a 7th grader but her therapist told her that It was her actions that defined her, not her feelings. She didn't pursue the kid or anything and kept boundaries. The comments were really grossed out, which I was too, but then I began to wonder if thats how I am with animals. I started worrying that I have an attraction to animals and that im just not wanting to accept my feelings and it makes me feel sick to my stomach. I'd never want to hurt or do anything sexual with an animal but I still get all these intrusive feelings and thoughts around my dog and other animals. I have this same obsession around fictional animals and it makes me so anxious. Like what if im attracted to fictional animal characters and just don't want to admit it? I cant even watch movies like the Lion King or anything without getting bad intrusive thoughts and anxiety. Like I'm afraid I'll find something horrible out about myself. Now I'm doubting if it's OCD at all .... or if I have OCD and still feel attraction, or something like that. All of this over a video. OCD is the worst.