My counselor is doubting my psychiatrist and the the phychiatrists that evaluated me in the phych ward. She states that I was only there for 72 hours and that an OCD diagnosis takes 6 months. She is telling me she thinks I have postpartum depression instead of Harm OCD. Now I'm obviously doubting myself and everything. What would you do? What should I be doing?
she’s a counselor and they are several psychiatrists. One person verses others. Postpartum depression is different from ocd. You could possibly have both! But I think the depression is based on not feeling connected to your baby and hormones. You can get thoughts about harming yourself or your baby, but with ocd you get a one thought at first about your baby or surrounding it which causes the spiral where as postpartum depression is the opposite. Even if it was postpartum depression it wouldn’t mean that you are more inclined to harm your baby. I just got out of the psych ward 2 days ago after an 8 day stay which I desperately needed. One of the psychiatrists I met there tried to Tell me I was strictly suicidal the first day I was there and that he didn’t think I had ocd because it was the only obsession I told him About (I have suicidal ocd) and I cried my eyes out. I have been evaluated by 2 other therapists, and met with 3 other psychiatrists at the hospital who confirmed that the thoughts were coming against my will, which means it is OCD. They saved my life there by starting me on Fluvoxamine. Please don’t let one persons doubt deter you from getting help.
I agree it could be both. I had severe post partum anxiety as well as ocd. Treatment for ocd is exposure therapy and postpartum anxiety/ depression is normally medications. I would talk with your obgyn about their recommendations as they will know what meds are safe if breastfeeding and go from there.
My youngest is 4 years old. I asked if you could have postpartum that many years later and she said yes. So it's even more strange to me
It isnt unheard of but not super common but I am not an expert. I never fully recovered before I was pregnant ( I have 4 kids 13 11 9 and 7). After my last child I had postpartum for 3 years then I had to have a complete hysterectomy so those hormones were completely removed.
I was diagnosed with PPD after having my daughter. They put me on Zoloft and I took it for awhile and stopped once I felt better. A few years later I was getting the intrusive thoughts again and they put me back on Zoloft. Stopped taking it again and sure enough a few years later ended up in the hospital where I was finally diagnosed with Harm OCD 7 years later. I couldn’t believe I was misdiagnosed the entire time and I had never even heard of different types of OCD before. I just always thought of OCD as the stereotypical “I have to clean everything”. Having an actual diagnosis now and learning so much about OCD has really helped me.
TW. Also long post ahead . I’ve been dealing with OCD for the past 10 years. I’m 32 years old . I didn’t get diagnosed with OCD until this year. I was always diagnosed with GAD, panic disorder, and depression. I don’t have your typical compulsions. Mine are mostly all mental. Reassurance seeking, avoidance , repeating a prayer , etc . I have three main themes . Schizophrenia OCD, sexual orientation OCD, and HIV. Sometimes i deal with harm OCD and POCD but my main big three are the ones I listed first . I feel like the schizophrenic OCD is the most debilitating for me. For the last ten years I’ve been thinking I’m losing my mind . I thought once I got to a certain age the fear would go away but it hasn’t and is in full force . I’m constantly checking my surroundings, what I’m hearing, how I’m acting , questioning if things are real and so on . Now I do have times where this theme doesn’t bother me . It’s put on the back burner . I go through cycles . But when I’m focusing on this theme I feel like I’m hearing stuff . Most of the time I can’t make it out but recently I feel like I’ve been hearing a whisper saying “hey” . It mainly happens at night . It sends me into a complete panic and I feel like “this is it “ I’m seeing an OCD therapist and she recommended me to go to this psychiatric place in town to get meds to help my anxiety from the OCD. My last psychiatrist always pushed the newest medicine and was constantly changing up my regimen. I thought I would give it a try. WORST IDEA EVER . Keep in mind my therapist gave me a letter to give to her explaining I have been diagnosed with OCD and explaining it . She doesn't think I have OCD at all. She wanted to put me on an antipsychotic so me with my OCD brain . I asked her if she thought I was psychotic . She said I was nearing psychosis . She called me interesting . She feels like I have major depressive disorder . I'm just at a loss for words. It was honestly the strangest meeting I have had with a psychiatrist. It was very unprofessional. She has no idea the damage she has done nor do I think she cares. I just don't know what to Believe in anymore ... We met for approximately 45 minutes . First time ever meeting. I just want to cry and I’m freaking out 😢
I've gotten diagnosed with OCD and I'm in therapy. But I'm worried that I don't have OCD/that I got misdiagnosed. And recently I'm worried that I've just gotten myself into a habit of thinking of dirty minded or just plain old terrible things after I see/hear certain things because I feel like I need to prove I have OCD or else I'm faking(sometimes this goes away). Or that I'm just mimicking symptoms of ocd to cope with real problems I may have and that im just really deep into denial. I don't know...I'm just so tired. I mean, what if I really am what I think I am and this is my brains only way of coping? I don't even really feel anything towards most of the thoughts anymore either I just know they go against my values and I don't want them. I don't know if that's because I'm so mentally exhausted, I just don't care, or that the thoughts are true and I'm comfortable with them.
My therapist isn’t specialized in OCD. I’m her first OCD client. She told me she’s taking courses in ERP and specifically sexual OCD since a lot of my themes are sexual in nature. I want help, I need help. It feels like every time I meet with her I get set back. I make progress a lot on my own. Sitting with discomfort, trying to accept the thoughts and uncertainty. But every single time I meet with her, it feels like I’m explaining OCD to her. She even went as far as to suggest that some of my thoughts that bring me distress are mine. I am not a cheater. They are not mine. Why on earth would they not be intrusive if I was in tears about having this thought? I feel bad. I really do because I can see that even though I can very much see her mistakes, I can also see that she’s trying to help me. I’m just so scared of getting worse. I’ve been in therapy for 5 weeks now. I feel like had it been with a specialist, I would be doing so much better. Instead it takes me days to come backs to whatever progress I’ve made alone after meeting with her. She’s a great person, she tells me she experiences intrusive thoughts too and she doesn’t have OCD which helps me feel less alone but I don’t think that’s enough for me. She’s always available for a call whenever I’m in extreme panic. I just don’t think this is working. I trust her and I tell her everything, but it feels like she’s just listening to me talk the whole time. We’re doing a workbook but she gives me absolutely 0 input. I just read my replies and she just sits there. I don’t understand the point in that. I feel so anxious right now. She wants me to get properly evaluated for anything that may be going on because on top of the severe OCD, I was also diagnosed with PMDD, GAD, and MDD by my primary care doctor but I guess she doesn’t trust those diagnoses? My psychiatrist also told me I have ADHD, which I’ve suspected my whole life but it sounds like my therapist doesn’t know how to handle OCD much less OCD, MDD, GAD, PMDD, and ADHD. She’s questioning the validity of my diagnoses instead of helping me figure out how to deal with all of it. This is so suffocatingly difficult. I’m also a huge people pleaser so how on earth do I end this thing?
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