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- idont241
- Date posted
- 5y ago
No, lemme tell you, OCD can make you feel your thoughts are real and OCD can make your thoughts manifest itself onto your feelings, which means if your biggest fear is being bi, you will feel like bi. When I temporarily struggled with HOCD, i felt attracted to my own gender and that was a strong feeling, but once i talked with my counselor and got over the fact that it is HOCD, then i stopped being bothered about it and some point later I realized i don't feel any attraction to my own gender anymore like I felt when i had HOCD. OCD feels to real to be OCD so that is why you are having this crazy preference or feelings. And sexuality is in brain, so OCD can mess up your sexuality, but only as long as you are anxious but in reality, your sexuality is what you are born with.
I say that but it never truly gets rid of the thoughts but it definitely has lessened them! I’m to the point where I know it’s not true but my ocd is still there doubting every little thing. Like I said I will say it’s not true and then ocd is like but are you sure it’s not true?? That annoys me and gives me a little anxiety. Also same I’ve never felt attracted to girls, at least I don’t think so. I’ve always fantasized about boys. I had this same thing happen to me 4 years ago and I got over it and it happened again. But before I didn’t know it was ocd. It’s really hard :(
I’ve only seen one on here, and she said that she’s had ocd all her life and she thought she might have hocd. But she noticed that she’s always been attracted to girls and it never really was a question. I’ve never really seen any other ones. This did just make me doubt my hocd, hopefully I actually have it. But what I do know is I don’t want to date a girl or be with a girl. I’m not going to let ocd bother me over something that I know is not true, and yes my ocd can say but do you actually know it’s not true? I don’t care because I’m not going to be something I don’t want to be! Sorry I rambled?
Omg I wish I can say that ! I wish I could just say I don’t care. But the thoughts always come back! I mean I find girls attractive and came to appreciate their beauty but I don’t think I ive ever wanted to be with one and touch one. But once I started to thing girls were pretty I started to question it. And it all got so scary. Because I’ve never fantasied about a girl. I was happy liking boys. It’s wang felt right.
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Yes I just wanna go back to being happy and fantasing about boys. I never questioned being lesbian. I never had a problem but suddenly I do. And it sucks. I never thought I was lesbian if I thought a girl was pretty or had a nice body. But reading about hocd people who have gotten through it make me feel better.
Yess! Same! I had a senior crush and fantasize about going out with him and all! I even tried to text him but didn’t work out. But yes I miss it too. And yes I used to notice boys but I kinda stopped because I didn’t want to crush on them for fear of being rejected or played by them. But ever since hocd I get scared around girls. I get scared if I think they’re pretty or anything like that. Cause I take that as evidence that I’m attracted to them when I’m not. But then I say “what if I am” this is all such a pain. I hate it. Glad to hear you’re getting through it though!
Wait so people have actually turned out to be bi?
I used to fantasize about boys allllllll the time. I had a major crush on this boy in middle school and I would fantasize about us dating in high school? How embarrassing!!! I just miss that. I’m to the point where I’m kind of noticing boys again, and I’m not to worried when I’m around girls it kind of just depends??♀️
Thank you! I would really recommend doing stuff that your ocd doesn’t want you to do! Like if you want to hang out with your friends but your ocd is telling you that you’ll have a crush on one of your friends just do it. Tell ocd who cares and fight through anxiety. That’s what I do! Also try not to think to much if your ocd says something that bothers you don’t think about it to much it makes things wayyyy worse trust me
Noooooo most of the time it’s people who have had other ocd tendencies and they think how they are feeling is hocd and not them being gay. So here’s an example, a girl has felt like she liked girls all her life, she had attraction and everything. But she also has ocd and she’s had that all her life, she believes that what is going on is just ocd not an actual sexual identity thing. But then she notices she’s always liked girls and that’s how she Is she knows it’s not ocd she’s just been that way. I don’t know if that made since but a lot of the time that’s what it is
I’m so afraid I might be lesbian. I was very anxious at first but it started to calm down. I’m only 15 and I have a boyfriend I love. At least I think I do, I always chose to question everything and over analyze. I found out about hocd and it described everything I was feeling. I’d take test and read articles like “am I lesbian” but I have never fantasied a girl or wanted to be with a girl sexually or romantically. But what if I’m in denial? I do think girls are physically attractive but I never crushed on a girl. I have always crushed on boys. And liked being with them. I’m just so lost. My anxiety about it had calmed down. But the question is still there sometimes. Earlier today, I found a girl pretty and I got scared thinking that meant something. Then I read about women who have married men, but they know they’re lesbian. I’m scared that that’ll Happen to me. I don’t want to be lesbian. No disrespect. But I just want to be happy. I think I’ve suffered from ocd before. Tell me anyone if I’m wrong. But I used to have thoughts of that my boyfriend would murder me in the future because of theses videos that triggered me. It caused me so much pain and felt so real. That I eventually started to think I’d murder my mom and sister for no reason. I felt so helpless. But I got through it. I hope I get through this. Please any advice? Is this hocd?? Does anyone else feel this way?
" I've seen and read that bisexual people find out they are like that later in life (Compared to homosexual people) and that it isn't a phase, that they deny it their whole life and suffer because of it, and that some people with HOCD were truly bisexual and deny homosexual yearnings but they live in a lie their whole life because of treatment." This has been a scare I've had because I've always had that fear of "what if I'm one of those people" , Then my brain is like "you know it'd be fun, you know your open to sex with a woman " . Then combine that with lesser anxiety and it feels real.
I’m afraid that one day I will get pleasure from the idea of being bisexual. I feel like it’s inevitable that I come out. I don’t like girls and I never have, but what the fuck? What is this? I am so scared that I feel joy when I think about being bisexual. I am terrified. What if this is just internalized homophobia? I am alone. I am the outlier. I’m sure I don’t have ocd. I’ve made this all up to cover up my sexuality.
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