I'm scared, I keep focusing on my breathing.

Some things I’ve picked up in my journey as it may relate to somatic ocd and/or body sensations: The heart knows how to pump blood throughout the body, the lungs know how much air to breathe in & out, the stomach knows how to process nourishment, the eye lids know how & when to blink, my scalp has muscles & blood vessels that pulsate. So I’ve learned to let them all do their jobs without having to interfere and accept the uncertainty. Hope this helps you.

Hey, sorry you're experiencing this. Try allowing the thoughts/feelings to be there, but do something you value, maybe get outside, take a walk, move your body in a way that you like. The idea being to redirect your focus to a value-based behavior as opposed to a fear-based behavior. It will probably feel bad, irresponsible, like you're making a mistake, but it is important to move forward with your life. Don't wait to feel better before you move forward. My therapist said to me, "Doing comes before feeling." I would always want to feel better before I did anything. Now I know when I wake up and feel the fears/intrusive thoughts/feelings start to come I make myself get up, get dressed, get to work (all value driven behaviors). Sure the fears/thoughts/feelings are still there, I don't resist them or try to get rid of them, they accompany while I do things I value. An interesting thing happens when I do this, the fears/thoughts/feelings dissipate. Good luck, hang in there, you're are stronger than you know!

Hey, that’s great! Recovery is a process that takes practice. Don’t get disheartened, believe me, I work on it everyday. The important thing is you are moving forward. I am working on my driving too😀. I try everyday to allow uncertainty, focus on my values. Sometimes it’s just that I get out of bed, get dressed and make my bed. Be kind to yourself, you are doing hard things❤️. Have you reached out for therapy? NOCD therapists are great! There are a ton of helpful videos on NOCDs YouTube channel too. Certainly reach out here too. It was so helpful for me too to realize I wasn’t alone. Take care!