- Date posted
- 2y
Having trust issues
I keep on thinking that my boyfriend is cheating on me and I don’t know why. I hung out with him today and I asked if I can use his phone to see if he would be all defensive or not and he just asked on what I was gonna do and I just start taking pictures of myself and he starts laughing because he found the faces I was making silly. But when he wasn’t looking I did scroll to look at his notifications and saw that a girl on snap sent him a snap and then I saw some girl or bot named Cher🍒 and my stomach dropped and my whole mood changed entirely. He saw that my mood changed and started to hug me and give me lots of kisses and asked me what was wrong cause he was concerned and I had a hard time deciding on weather or not I should ask him if he’s cheating on me. So I did end up asking him if he’s seeing other people and he said No and asked if I was and I said no then he gave me a big hug. We than went downstairs and I asked again if he was seeing other girls, talking to other girls, or cheating on me and he said “No I’m not seeing someone else love” and he rested his head on my shoulder. I then asked about the girl that snapped him and he asked me what the name was but I told him how I couldn’t see the name so he said that it’s probably his old co worker sending him streaks and how she does that. I then asked him if he’s told her that he’s dating me he said yes that he’s told her. I then later asked about this Cher🍒 person and that’s when he told me how it was a porn bot from his old telegram and how he was gonna delete it cause he doesn’t use it anymore and so he did. I feel like I did a lot of compulsions today with the constant questioning and I still have a hard time believing him so when I got home I asked him again if he was talking to other girls and he said “no I’m not”. I would also like to mention that he never once acted all defensive or worried he responded to me calmly while also showing me affection and trying to calm me down and be there for me when he noticed my mood changed but yet even though he acted so sweet I had a hard time believing him. It’s gotten to the point where I almost tried looking up ways to log into his account but I stopped myself because it’s not worth it and I’m probably just looking for answers constantly and it’s gonna cause me to create a toxic habit. But later in the day he did make time to watch anime with me and stayed up past his bed time when he normally goes to sleep. I really don’t know what to do in order to calm my mind and actually try to trust him. Has anyone ever experienced this before?