OCD is actually demonic.

I used to have issues feeling like I was “making deals” with God in regards to Him taking my abilities. God has shown me in so many ways how that’s not at all how He works and that He won’t take from me, but would rather comfort and better direct my mind into healthy thinking… so fast forward to today, I keep thinking I’m making “deals” with the devil when I don’t want to at all. Now I get intrusive thoughts making me feel like if I don’t complete my compulsions “it’s a deal with that guy” (it’s triggering even typing what it is) and I just feel stuck. I was watching a video of somebody jumping in a lake. I got it in my head “if I don’t pause it before she jumps in, it’s a deal with the enemy” and I failed the compulsion miserably. What am I supposed to do now? I feel like I’m just giving away my abilities when I don’t even want anything to do with the enemy. he’s a broken opponent, and has been since the moment he left heaven. Somebody please, this is getting really bad.

Religion & Spirituality OCD

anthonycaronna

Date posted: 1y ago

This is something that’s pretty common for people who have scruples. It makes us think irrationally thinking that I’m maybe possessed or something. I do agree 100% with the caption, I call OCD “Devils disease”, because it does what the Devil does to our minds. Makes us worried, anxious and confused. Like one thing, manifesting is something I came across recently, and it’s something that I can increase my confidence and my faith in the Lord. I’ve heard people say it’s the enemy when you manifest, but really it’s not. Don’t let people or the enemy get to you. TD Jakes said the more you go through in the battlefield, the greater the reward God will grant you in the end. God gives his best warriors his toughest battles. He will never give you something more than you can’t handle. Don’t give the enemy attention, he’s not worth it. He wants your attention and will do anything to make you afraid and question yourself, your morals and God. Just have faith in God for you know how he is already. Don’t worry about making deals you haven’t made any, OCD just does that. Don’t pay attention and just focus on recovery and God. God bless🙏

Cody

Date posted: 1y ago

@anthonycaronna Thank you so much for that, you’re the only one that responded and you delivered.. but I guess my biggest fear is that what if I end up slipping up and making an intentional deal with the devil? Can I just pray to God and undo that? I was helping put my little brother to sleep, and I wanted to tell him “goodnight” but I got it in my head that “if I say goodnight, it’s a deal with enemy” and though I didn’t mean this at all… impulse took control and I told him goodnight anyways. Now I fear as though I’ve made an intentional deal.. because I got that in my head but said goodnight anyways. I think my biggest fear is making accidental deals on purpose.. if that makes any sense at all. So though this will never happen, in the scenario that I DID make a deal with the enemy, can it all be undone by just praying in the Name of Jesus or…. I don’t know but this new theme of ocd is messing me up so bad right now

ReadyForImpr...

Date posted: 1y ago

Oof. There are a lot of compulsions here... I know it can be complex when OCD attaches to your faith. Please know I'm not here to pass judgment. I truly mean to help here. Are you working with an OCD specialist? If so, please get guidance on this from them. If not, I strongly recommend it. I'm seeing a lot of OCD in what you've written and compulsions to go with it. OCD is attaching to your faith, from what you describe. Praying to undo things is a compulsion. The idea is to do the opposite of what OCD's "rules" tell you... so your ERP is likely going to involve making a deal with the enemy you mention. And not praying to undo it. Then letting the discomfort and distress and doubt be there. I don't know your specific faith, but it sounds like you have a lot of trust in God/Jesus. So, trust that you can do ERP and that God knows you're doing exposures that will help you get well again. That may involve making a deal with the enemy intentionally, to use your words. The only way to get better is to stop doing compulsions and intentionally going against the rules OCD is giving you.

Cody

Date posted: 1y ago

@ReadyForImprovement I can’t thank you enough for this, this helped more than you know. You pointed out the holes in my game plan in the most respectful and informing way. I absolutely did not feel like you were passing judgement at all, but rather hope that this isn’t as big as my thoughts are making it out to be. I need to start ERP asap I’m tired of living in these chains ⛓ the ERP sounds exactly like something I need… but I really don’t even want to play around with stuff like that. I’m praying Jesus will just cleanse my mind completely and/or speak directly on my situation like I’ve seen Him do in the past. I need serious help

ReadyForImpr...

Date posted: 1y ago

@Cody Oh, I'm so glad it came across the way I had hoped! I know how scary it feels. Truthfully, all OCD themes feel this way to the person who has it. The stakes seem extra high when it deals with things like health, life & death, beliefs around eternity/faith. You won't start out doing the high level exposures. You'll start very, very small - something that only gives you a little anxiety and you'll learn to just be ok with the uncertainty. Eventually, you'll be able to confront your biggest ones, but not until you've taken care of the less daunting levels. I'm not going to lie to you, if praying and faith alone fixed OCD, tons of us would be cured by now... You know what they say "God helps those who help themselves". I truly hope you'll get guidance from a therapist who specializes in OCD. NOCD has a couple of religious OCD support groups filled with people who have similar obsessions and compulsions to yours who are getting better with therapy. Also, if you check out IOCDF.org, they have a free religious OCD support group that meets every second Wednesday. It's run by a therapist with OCD, who is also a chaplain who is working on her PhD. Hoping you will find some solace and find your way 🩷

Cody

Date posted: 1y ago

@ReadyForImprovement Yeah that’d definitely be cool, but taking it to a deeper level.. I truly believe I’m in the middle of spiritual warfare and it’s only by the strength of God that I’m going to ever find true peace, true understanding. God says “I will fight for you, you must only be still” but I can’t seem to just sit still when I feel like my mind is forcing me to think such depressing and draining thoughts. I know God will see me through it, food has to go through the oven before it’s ready to be served…. But I don’t want to keep taking this heat. It’s been too long and I’m just tired

Anonymous

Date posted: 7w ago

I have the same

leena445

Date posted: 25w ago

im so confused

im not diagnosed, but these past two days have been terrible. i constantly have this underlying feeling that i might do something that i think is gross and i feel like i can’t do anything on my own because otherwise i might do something wrong. like i feel like i constantly have to be in front of people so that i can make sure of my every action. this is so exhausting and I’m so confused. and like i keep getting terrible images and stuff replaying in my head. i also try to recall what happened but i feel like i have false event too. i used to have religious ocd and that eventually stopped completely, but now it feels like all my work getting over that was pointless. also like i feel like i might have contamination ocd but not the typical germ type. I just get terrible images and I can’t remember if those images are true or not even though they’re impossible and i feel terrible. I don’t know if i could ever get over this because even the thought of it is terrible.

Anonymous

Date posted: 24w ago

Evil OCD

im Catholic and ever since starting highschool and started being scared of what people are thinking. I’m scared that I’m evil and that I praise evil because my ocd is a fear of talking to it so my compulsion is to focuse on talking to something or someone else. But, I keep imagining evil like under the ground and now it feels like I know its personality. And I can’t imagine it as truly evil and I can’t even imagine God anymore. Please help

KelSul73

Date posted: 22w ago

Religious OCD

Hey I feel like I just have this evil like whirring feeling of anxiety and like “something bad is gonna happen” and feeling you’re going to do things against God or like you already have I guess?

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