Geez, I seem to just be getting worse. I keep thinking what if I’ve been lesbian all my life but never payed attention to it. I mean it feels right to be with a man and have a boyfriend I want that. But why do I keep doubting it I just want this to end. I’ve never been a girly girly. I like cute clothes but I hate how it looks on me I feel so insecure. Same with make up. And I keep thinking maybe that’s evidence I could be lesbian. This all sounds ridiculous but why can’t I just accept the fact that I’m straight. I actually like being with boys and kissing them. I get aroused when I kiss them. So why is this happening?

Strict gender norms tend to be great feeding grounds for OCD. You can find a million little rules for how straight or gay people are “supposed” to act. Meanwhile, no person follows these with 100% adherence. OCD loves to dig into these complex areas of the human psyche because we all exist on various spectrums that are often contradictory and layered and unable to fit into one neat box every second of every day. Your brain will never be able to make sense of it, so it can continually cast doubt in your mind. Accept the uncertainty and confusion of it all and don’t let your OCD try to steal your identity simply because it doesn’t fit this or that tiny rule some of the time.

Dont be sad or angry at your self you are human . Be yourself and be strong I'm 5 years now hocd times it's perfect and no anxiety my sex life gets back on par. In the last 5 years myself and my fiance have had two kids so what I'm getting at is life goes on it's normal to have thoughts it's just sometimes like what we are going threw was always looked down on and told it's wrong for man years. If it was always accepted it wouldnt cause us much stress as it really wouldnt matter if you think it . If there was no consequence for breaking the law you wouldnt panic if you were speeding and see a police officer . Or would worry about getting caught stealing somthing. But because there is and you do so you fell anxiety of getting caught

Cause the brain knows it bothers us . We react by having anxiety . If there was no anxiety it wouldnt bother us . When the brain sences that we dont like it and that we took its bait it keeps casting back at us . Grab the bait and take the bull by the horns so I dont care. It's nothing to me gay or strait it's all good. I'm still me and have a life ahead of me . If you take the power from it, it dont put us down

Yes strict rules can end up fuelling ocd and restricting who we feel we can be and how we can express ourselves. If I wear pink as a man, does that make me guy? If I drive a certain car or don't like sports does that make me gay? No. I neee to give myself plenty of space to be me, rather than live in fear of people thinking I'm gay.

same with me but i’m a guy?

It’s the worst. Like why th is this happening. I was okay before, but suddenly I’m questioning everything.

Say I dont care * not so ...

Thank you. At this point I’m starting to just feel so sad and angry that this is happening to me. Idk what I did to suffer this way. I hate this so much I started to cry already. I want this to end.