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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
Hocd
Whoever has hocd.. does ur thoughts say “he’s cute or he’s hot” if ur a guy afraid of being gay? I hate when it does that
Whoever has hocd.. does ur thoughts say “he’s cute or he’s hot” if ur a guy afraid of being gay? I hate when it does that
Nah, I just stopped caring tbh. I am engaged and going to marry my fiancée in 4 months, I know deep down who I am attracted to the rest is just noise.
@Anonymous Congrats man on the engagement. Rootin for you man
Yes, I’ve monitored myself though, when I am not anxious or worrying, my mind some how magically doesn’t say these things. It’s funny lol
@Anonymous Wheneve I’m at the gym or anywhere or on social my mind says it then I have anxiety
Don’t worry about it, happened when this all first started to me. I started not caring, slowly dissipated.
@Anonymous I always try but sometimes it seems real because sometimes it does it to like handsome dudes but I’m not sexually attracted to them there just handsome. If my ocd called them handsome instead I wouldn’t care
@Anonymous This is exactly what's happening to me and it's so damn hard
@Lit555 Hey bro. I don’t rlly deal with HoCD THAT MUCH anymore but just trust me it actually does get better. I never believed that shit when people said it but it does. I don’t wanna give u reassurance which technically this is but I needed to hear it from time to time. I’m only 19 so keep going!!
@Anonymous Thank you man, my OCD has gotten so bad that it literally feels like I have a new brain in my head and I've lost the old one. My OCD is really bad.
@Lit555 Just don’t say ur not so so. Just accept that the thoughts are there and don’t pay attention to them. Easier said than done… get a hobby like working out which I do or travel idk hang with friends.
@Anonymous You're right, I'll move out and overcome my OCD and I think that way I'll have a sense of reality, so my brain will reset and I'll come back, I think that's why it affects me so much because there's no reality. I feel like I'm not among people, I simply don't feel the world, the reality, and that's definitely a big reason why it's like this in my head and how it's affecting me.
Felt the same exact way that’s funny lol
@Anonymous U don’t got a problem with it anymore ? I’m doing ERP and I’m trying to solve it before I go to college in 28 days
Appreciate it bro, nothing for nothing, this literally started when I started planning for my wedding etc, in your case going to college.. life changing things create stress
@Anonymous I’m 18 and this started when I was 15.. 3 years of hell. And it makes it worse only going to college but I’ll get thru it
You got it don’t worry too much.. I know easier said than done
It's like you know you've located a trigger and you know you don't want to think something like that, symptomatically the mind says “oh, don't you want to think something uncomfortable? We're going to send this to you and see how it goes."
@Carlos A automatically
Yeah it does the same with me
I did an exposure yesterday. I was thinking that my sister-in-law has nice looking lips. And I told her that even though it caused me anxiety. And what happened: nothing bad. She thanked me and next we were thinking how to make them look even better with lipstick. Like girls use to talk abt make-ups and beauty.
Answer to your mind: Oh yes, that is an interesting thought. He is hot. Maybe I like him. Maybe not. It takes the power off of your OCD.
I wanted to voice that homosexuals can get HOCD too. I remember when i was younger and knew i was gay i still got HOCD one time when watching The Office. I thought Pam was so pretty and then started doubting my whole identity because what if i am straight? Oh god, what a terror if i was heterosexual. But anyway, thought that maybe this would help heteros with HOCD by knowing that this is a universal symptom across OCD sufferers of all sexual orientations. A big problem is calling this subtype “Homosexual OCD,” because its not. It has nothing to do with being homo or hetero or bi or anything. Its just OCD being a bully. I think labelling subtypes is an issue altogether, as it can unconsciously make people feel like its not just OCD. But it is. Does this make any sense? What are yall’s thoughts on this? Or is this just my OCD talking? (Im not seeking reassurance just genuinely find this interesting) TLDR; each time we “qualify” OCD with a subtype, we reinforce that the subtype is part of the issue. In reality, OCD is just a broken loop in our brains, and thoughts are just thoughts. And Pam Beesly is a hottie.
Has anyone experienced where you love woman everything about them, even to the point where you still can get erections watching normal porn, lesbian porn etc. but you find your self still admiring a good looking man. I’ve went through the groinal responses when seeing a man but honestly after watching porn and realizing it’s not about sex it went away. On the other hand even when there’s a male and a female in a picture I can’t stop looking at the male and judging, but the minute they’re naked I’m fine and looking at the woman. I started watching porn at a very young age so I’m wondering do I only sexualize woman and admire the man so in everyday life I don’t see her as beautiful because she’s not naked ? I understand as a straight male I can still think guys are attractive but why do I constantly notice them more than women? I also can admire and see when a girl is beautiful in the face but then if a dude that’s more attractive than me pops up in staring at him. Has anyone experience this?
This shit has to be one of the most confusing subtypes of ocd because no matter what you will never find clarity. When it started it wasn’t as bad and confusing because it was mostly anxiety. But when it started getting physical that’s when it got extremely confusing because I feel tension and fear when thinking of gay stuff but while testing I get arousal sensations so the big question is “if I am afraid of it how can my body respond as if I’m into it and if I’m into it how does my body respond with fear as if I’m not” and it’s endless. I wish I never started testing my arousal so I never started getting groinals to gay stuff in the first place. But there’s no going back now.
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