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- 5y ago
- Date posted
- 5y ago
My last OCD crisis left me believing I didn't have much time left to live - therefore I started doing everything I had always put off doing: - I published my 2 poetry book and started working on the 3rd - I finished composing all the songs I had been planning for many years, they'll be published soon. - I went on vacation to the places I had always wanted to visit. - I took up boxing training which I had always wanted to do but was too scared for the fear of not being masculine enough. - I took up Zen training in a dojo. - I started writing in a diary regularly. - I learned tons about cognitive-behavioural theory, which has helped my life immensely, not only OCD related. - I've become less perfectionist, less judgmental, more forgiving and appreciative on life. - I conquered my fears and don't let them rule my life anymore. I feel braver than ever.
- Date posted
- 5y ago
The more I did those things the more the ocd symptoms subsided - Incredible but true. When we ACT the way we WANT to be, our brain follows suit. I owe a great deal of that to Mark Freeman - I learned that from him. ---- In regards thanking the OCD, I see it more like a bully, a mischievous kid that needs love. Sometimes I have to discipline it, sometimes I have to hug it and give it love. The truth is that "the monster" all it want is love.
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- 5y ago
That is amazing! Even though no one should be in that position of thinking about the time they have and what could happen, it's still great how you said "I'm gonna do this" or "i'm gonna do that", doing it. It kinda makes your mind stronger, helping you help yourself by successfully stopping or preventing your OCD from doing things. Wow. Did you thank your OCD?
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- 5y ago
That was wholesome Fernando. Tho I am really curious about your poetry books.
- Date posted
- 5y ago
They are two collections of poetry in Spanish that I had scattered and was waiting for someone to tell me how good my poetry was and to publish them for me. Instead, I put them together myself and self-published them on Amazon for my future generations. I don't regret it.
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- 20w ago
hey! i was thinking it would be cool if there would be a place where we could find people and become friends with other people dealing with ocd. it could be a safe place for us to say our experience so far, or to just talk about anything, even if it’s not ocd related. lmk what you think about this idea and comment what you think we could/should make it on!
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 6w ago
My earliest memory of OCD was at five years old. Even short trips away from home made me physically sick with fear. I couldn’t stop thinking, What if something bad happens when I’m not with my mom? In class, I’d get so nervous I’d feel like throwing up. By the time I was ten, my school teacher talked openly about her illnesses, and suddenly I was terrified of cancer and diseases I didn’t even understand. I thought, What if this happens to me? As I got older, my fears shifted, but the cycle stayed the same. I couldn’t stop ruminating about my thoughts: What if I get sick? What if something terrible happens when I’m not home? Then came sexually intrusive thoughts that made me feel ashamed, like something was deeply wrong with me. I would replay scenarios, imagine every “what if,” and subtly ask friends or family for reassurance without ever saying what was really going on. I was drowning in fear and exhaustion. At 13, I was officially diagnosed with OCD. Therapy back then wasn’t what it is now. I only had access to talk therapy and I was able to vent, but I wasn’t given tools. By the time I found out about ERP in 2020, I thought, There’s no way this will work for me. My thoughts are too bad, too different. What if the therapist thinks I’m awful for having them? But my therapist didn’t judge me. She taught me that OCD thoughts aren’t important—they’re just noise. I won’t lie, ERP was terrifying at first. I had to sit with thoughts like, did I ever say or do something in the past that hurt or upset someone? I didn’t want to face my fears, but I knew OCD wasn’t going away on its own. My therapist taught me to sit with uncertainty and let those thoughts pass without reacting. It wasn’t easy—ERP felt like going to the gym for your brain—but slowly, I felt the weight of my thoughts dissipate. Today, I still have intrusive thoughts because OCD isn’t curable—but they don’t control me anymore. ERP wasn’t easy. Facing the fears I’d avoided for years felt impossible at first, but I realized that avoiding them only gave OCD more power. Slowly, I learned to sit with the discomfort and see my thoughts for what they are: just thoughts.
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