bri ★
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help
i feel like this is not hocd and im scared of just coming out because of how it first started for me
KalalalalaKalalalala
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How did it start for you if you don’t mind me asking? Maybe I can help you better…
bri ★bri ★
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@Kalalalala my mom one day randomly asked me if i was gay as a joke because of a rainbow i had on my lock screen when i was 13 and i said no and then started thinking “what if i am gay?” and then i started asking myself if i ever like a girl and then i started questioning if i liked one of my friends cuz i was rlly close to her i never thought abt her like that before that but i remember asking my gay friends if they could give me advice cuz i was “questioning” and they told me that they panicked when they’re mom asked if they were gay it was different for me because i didn’t think i was gay at the time but after that i started questioning if i really was straight or not and then i said that i don’t think my mother would approve if i was bi idk if i said this because i was scared of it or not but i did think abt her maybe not accepting me for it but i really didn’t know if i liked my friend or not so i think i was more scared of me liking my friend and being with women than coming out but eventually i did end up telling my mom abt it she didn’t care and i wasn’t scared of coming out but i was still scared of being gay and being with a women but i’m scared that this makes me just scared of coming out
bri ★bri ★
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@bri ★ sorry if this is long btw
jddjdd
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@bri ★ What was their panic about though?
bri ★bri ★
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@jdd i don’t remember much but i remember being panicked abt not knowing who i was and being scared that i liked my friend and not realizing it
KalalalalaKalalalala
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Sounds to me like you’re straight and you’re just coming out because your OCD is telling you to. This is literally the definition of OCD. In my case, I know I’m not gay or bi because I don’t give a shit about what people think. Even if they accepted me I still wouldn’t be ok with it because it doesn’t sit right with me you know?? Maybe “coming out” was actually a compulsion for you. Don’t give up. I’m sure it’s just your OCD. Talk to a therapist about this, I’m sure it’ll be more helpful. I personally think about being with a woman and my body finds it disgusting cuz I get nausea but my brain tells me that I like it. It is extremely distressing, I understand… but you’ll get better. Try to not fixate on this too much and live your life normally. Go out with friends, eat your favorite foods, stay hydrated and maybe meditate. Take care of yourself!
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 14w
Hey can you help me? My HOCD started like i was bullied in high school that im gay so i always afraid to become one. Im suprised that i wasn't triggered back then. Years later i just got homosexual thoughts that i tried to push away and then it became loudlyer. I hope that it's just traumatized me that they bullied me
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