OCD about my eating disorder.

Possible trigger warning if anyone else has an ED. I saw a post online that basically said if you cant have a restrictive eating disorder without being fatphobic. I have Anorexia, struggled with it for years. I truly believe in beauty at every size and eating what you want, I've never been the type of person to judge others for their bodies or what they eat. I would never look down on someone for their weight and I hate it when other people with my disorder shame people for being overweight or use it to 'encourage' themselves. I do have an unexplainable fear of gaining weight but that unfortunately just comes with the illness and i only ever apply these standards to myself. There's even been times I wished more people could think more like me so that I wouldn't be insecure about gaining weight. I genuienly dont equate weight to anyone's worth, to me it's just a number until I'm the one on the scale. My OCD is telling me now that by struggling an ED i hate fat people or am being offensive. That I should force myself to eat even though it makes me anxious and it's not something I can just force myself to do. I've been in this horrible limbo all day with my mind on whether or not just being sick makes me a terrible person. :') I hate OCD.

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Username: HeyitskgHeyitskg

Date posted: 1y ago

God, i relate to this. Just reassure yourself that your OCD is lying to you, maybe try repeating in your mind kind thoughts about all weights instead to counteract the bad ones you intrusively get?

Username: Northern_DownpourNorthern_Dow...

Date posted: 1y ago

I will try !! I need to get better at talking back to the OCD :')

Username: milliehewitt2milliehewitt2

Date posted: 1y ago

Your ocd is definitely lying to you on this one, but even if that was the truth, and what? (Someone told me to say like and what to my worries and found it reallt helped) even if you did think and believe that, it’s ok, thoughts can’t hurt people your not going around being horrible to people you can think and believe whatever you like. But as you said, you don’t think this and your not a horrible person regardless of any “bad” thoughts you may have

Username: Northern_DownpourNorthern_Dow...

Date posted: 1y ago

This is true ... thank you ♡ I will try saying so what to my OCD, I appreciate the comment.

Username: milliehewitt2milliehewitt2

Date posted: 1y ago

@Northern_Downpour I feel your anxiety as these kind of worries were what I found the most distressing. You are ok <3

Username: bayleaf 🌱bayleaf 🌱

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

As a fat person my best friend has an eating disorder and she is the kindest and least judgmental person. She’s the only person I feel comfortable telling my clothing sizes to and struggles with my weight. I think people saying that are chronically online and you don’t have to be fat phobic just because you’re struggling with a disorder. The disorder is more so about yourself not others, I think you’re fine ❤️

Username: Northern_DownpourNorthern_Dow...

Date posted: 1y ago

Thank you so much, I needed to hear this. ♡ I never want people to interpret my disorder as me judging others for their weight and I hate that people out there think that me being sick automatically makes me a bad person when I would never hurt anyone ??

Username: 🪸🪅🪗

Date posted: 2y ago

TW for eating disorder

i definitely think my eating disorder is caused from my ocd, if not only spurring it on. it feels so good to have such a rigid routine on myself. it feels grounding, but exhausting as well. its so fucking tiring being so strict on myself every second of every day but if i ever went off track i would no doubt think about it for like 3 whole days in paranoia of what the affects will be later and how i’ll get rid of it. i fucking hate it. i cant help but check my weight multiple times a day; if i don’t i feel panicked and lost. sorry this is a post about an ED but i do genuinely think if i didn’t have OCD i probably wouldn’t have this. if this isn’t appropriate to post let me know

Username: Cassie:)

Date posted: 2y ago

EDs/OCD

Has anyone else with an eating disorder wondered if it’s really just a manifestation of magical thinking? As in “my life will be better if I’m skinnier”, and other moral attachments to weight and appearance? I think this is difficult to determine since society does place moral judgments on weight… but it’s something I’ve been wondering about recently.

Username: Nikki Kim

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

OCD & body image/food issues

every once in a while my body image issues flare up & it can get intense. i obsess over the feeling I have in my clothes to check if I’ve gained weight, think of food, and have this perception that everyone sees me in a certain light I don’t want to see. i really can beat myself up with negative self talk. i haven’t realized until today since body image issues are so common that this could be my ocd. i used to engage in highly restrictive behavior when it came to food—I eliminated any white carbs, dairy, meat, etc & would do intermittent fasting. it’s hard not to fall into this obsession. I gained a few pounds over the last couple of months and it makes me feel anxious for the summer. anyone have a similar experience? x

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