- Date posted
- 2y
Hocd
Its making the intrusive feelings feel so so real… its making it feel like im in denial when i dont ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual in any way shape or form…
Its making the intrusive feelings feel so so real… its making it feel like im in denial when i dont ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual in any way shape or form…
Until you sit with those feelings you won't be able to get better
Like I feel geroinals ALL DAY and it’s stuck… I think I’m bi. But this still drives me nuts.
I don’t know what to do anymore, this started nearly a year ago and caused so much stress and panic attacks over the thought of loosing my boyfriend. Now it just feels real and that he always liked girls and suppressed it (but like the boys i always liked in the past were real feelings they had to be and with my boyfriend i love him) but i haven’t got much anxiety now feels like i want the thoughts and that they don’t bother me even tho they used to, this seems to happen every time i get a lil better, idk just feels so true and that’s what i acc want with no stress, just a lil scared.
I don’t know what to do with this bs anymore. I’m crying again and again and again and again. I cannot describe how painful this is. I’ve recovered from every single OCD subtype expect this one. HOCD is so scary and it’s so incredibly scary how it feels so real. The issue with this subtype is how intertwined it is with feelings and sensations. I hate how it keeps latching onto the past and uses the past as proof. I don’t want it to be the truth. I don’t want to accept any possibility.
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