Lewis711

Date posted: 2y

POCD Urges/false attraction

Can POCD attach your real desires to children? I seem to get impulses of attraction which cause me to go in panic mode. Does anyone else have this?

POCD

2groovy4u

Date posted: 2y

Well the whole theme of pocd revolves around the idea of being attracted to children so in that sense yes. OCD from what I have learnt simulates emotions and feelings etc. that are contrary to what we actually believe. That’s why you are panicking. It’s just OCDs way of getting you back into a cycle. The whole theme revolves around attraction to children and OCD makes everything seem more dramatic than it actually is. Your OCD is reacting to that anxiety by sending you false signals which get you back into rumination etc.

Lewis711

Date posted: 2y

@2groovy4u Yes, they just get very real sometimes to the point it feels like I’m in denial and don’t want to admit to it. I know it’s not what I truly desire because if it’s not on my mind, it’s like I wasn’t bothered about it but as soon as it comes back my OCD latches onto it again. It’s very good at convincing at worrying people.

Blumenkohl1

Date posted: 2y

@Lewis711 Experiencing the exact same atm

Lewis711

Date posted: 2y

@Blumenkohl1 Thank god there’s someone out there, it’s annoying isn’t it? It’s like a constant battle.

Blumenkohl1

Date posted: 2y

@Lewis711 Yes it is :( my intrusive thoughts gotten worse again as well so the combination of false attraction and intrusive thoughts is so horrible😭 makes me feel like I am an evil person

Lewis711

Date posted: 2y

@Blumenkohl1 My false attraction feel like impulses and I also mentally compulse by picturing sexual scenarios and get feelings from them which I don’t want. I’m just confused.

Blumenkohl1

Date posted: 2y

@Lewis711 I understand you so well! This is what I feel as well and that’s why I doubt so much and worry, then I have one or two days where it dies down all of the sudden, only to come back with weirder feelings than before😭

Lewis711

Date posted: 2y

@Blumenkohl1 Yep, exactly that. I got into rumination trying to ask my self these questions, does this feeling mean real attraction. I get an attractive impulse and go, why was I attracted to this then I would dwell on that and only that for hours until I’d find temporary relief.

Blumenkohl1

Date posted: 2y

@Lewis711 Oh yeah i get that sm. I also test myself with repeating intrusive thoughts/images over and over if they came with false attraction/weird sensation until I dont respond that way anymore but if I can’t really find that relief I get so frustrated and stressed out

Lewis711

Date posted: 2y

@Blumenkohl1 Yep, I do.

Lewis711

Date posted: 2y

@Blumenkohl1 If feels overwhelming because it’s like you want to admit to the attraction but you keep compulsively convincing yourself over and over that you aren’t. For example, if I get this attraction, I simply push it away and think of girls my age. (16) or older.

Lewis711

Date posted: 2y

@Lewis711 That’s what I desire.

Blumenkohl1

Date posted: 2y

@Lewis711 Yeah I totally get that compulsion tho. I try to convince myself that this isnt real by repeatedly thinking of kids/scenarios where I am friendly with them but there’s still this feeling lingering until it doesn’t but sometimes it doesn’t faint that quickly or it keeps lingering everytime I get an intrusive thought or if I ruminate again ugh

Lewis711

Date posted: 2y

@Blumenkohl1 I know, I was sat ruminating before and out of the urges, admitted to liking them due to the feelings they were giving me but as soon as I did I went into full rumination like why did I just get that feeling as if I truly like them, am I in denial? I know what I generally desire but it’s like this feeling in the back of your mind and in your chest. I also got the urge to research again.

Blumenkohl1

Date posted: 2y

@Lewis711 Oh yeah I get that feeling. I had this feeling all day, lingering in the back and as soon as I started ruminating it got worse or if I got an intrusive thought it came with such a crazy feeling in my chest and felt so convincing and made me ruminate for hours

Shaodidi

Date posted: 12w

False attraction

TW So I haven’t been diagnosed with pocd, but many ppl said that I have it. I was in bed when I remembered this time when I first started experiencing what I hope is false attraction not actual pedophilia, I’m looking back on it rn n I’m worried it wasn’t false attraction, I remember feeling a sense of attraction when I saw that kid, I was about14 at the time and the kid was 11 or 12. I remember constantly searching to see if it was normal for a 14 year old to like a 12 or 11 year old, I was worried when I was doing that i think, I also kept walking pass her to look at her i think to check if i was attracted or not, but it makes me worried that I was attracted to her because im worried that i did it bc i was actually attracted. now looking back on it rn, I don’t feel panic, worry, shame, or guilt, I originally only felt panic and worry, never shame or guilt. Now I don’t feel any of it, not feeling panic and worry now makes me think that I am a p, I don’t want to be a p. I hope im not a p, Ive talked to a therapist and they’ve said that it’s pocd, but it wasn’t a official diagnosis, I’m worried it was a false diagnosis because I lied on one or two of the questions. I also constantly get senses of what I hope is false attraction when I see some kids, I keep trying to figure out if it is real or false attraction. Can someone give me some advice please

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Purvi

Date posted: 12w

POCD help

I'm posting something after a long. I have multiple Ocd themes and my main themes of sexual ocd is incest Ocd and Hocd and POCD has never been so active but today something happened that has been bothering me for a while. I was traveling in a bus and there I saw a kid/young teen. When I saw him, I instantly found him so attractive and then BOOM.. I started feeling like I'm attracted to him. I felt confused. I literally found him attractive and also thought that he would look really fine after growing up his face was so attractive but I don't want to be into him at all. I feel like I'm so much into him. I'm feeling very bothered by this feeling. I feel like I'm in denial and I should accept my attraction towards him. I don't want to feel this way at all. I don't understand what to do, how to figure out this feeling. I'm 99% sure that there was an underlying attraction I felt when I looked at him and realized that he is good looking. I feel like dying from inside and extremely confused. He's not in my bus now and I feel urges to just see him once to finally figure out that I'm into him or not but he is not here. I think I'm a pedophile which I don't want to be and everything is finished now, nothing would be same in my mind because I'm so paranoid and feeling like I'm into him. Please somebody help me and let me know if anyone of you has ever felt this way having POCD.

izzyyyy24

Date posted: 12w

POCD

Anyone with pocd in the subset of teens/ fear of being attracted to teens have any advice? I never see anyone talking about it and it’s making me go a lil cray lmao

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