I’m having a panic attack right now. I’m talking to a cute boy and my mind is telling me I’m not attracted to him and I’m attracted to girls. I want to be with a guy. But what if I’m into girls and I have internal homophobia. I don’t want to be gay because it’s not something I believe in. I feel the need to come out. I want to be into men like I was. I hate this living like this is such a waste. I literally don’t want to be here. I’m at work and I’m freaking out

Textbook HOCD. Ignore the thoughts, don’t fight them, the more you resist it persists. Let them flow through you, they are just thoughts, nothing more nothing less. Thoughts are NOT our true inner desires when you have OCD, but me saying that will make you doubt you have HOCD, which in itself is a symptom of HOCD. Say “Thanks for the thought brain” and move on with your day. It’s hard, but the more you practice, it’ll start to fade away.

I hope this helps and it's not triggering, but I'm a girl and every now and then I'll notice a girl that looks attractive. But the thing is, our minds are drawn to pretty things. Attraction does not equal sexual attraction. I can be "attracted" to a lamp, but that doesn't mean I want to have babies with it lol. It just means I think it looks nice. And I used to have HOCD, how I got over it was by what he had said. (Although my HOCD isn't as severe as my current OCD) but I was able to tell myself, "she looks nice" and move on. So now years later when I get those thoughts I simply acknowledge them and don't worry about it. Because he's right, they are just thoughts and they don't mean anything. I know it can be difficult, but keep reminding yourself "thoughts are just thoughts" that's CBT and it helps ?

Yes they just thoughts however difficult. I get hocd thoughts and I treat them like a suicidal thoughts I get from time to time. I dont need to act on it. The calmer I stay the less it bothers me. The fear reaction tells our brain the thought is important so it keeps sending it back to us.

If I see another guy and think he's attractive thats ok. Im human and no need to read into it. Ive met guys before and we hit it off immediately and had chemistry. One time it was one of my girlfriend at the times male friends and she made fun of me for having a bromance

Sometimes I see beautiful little girl and think they are attractive, doesnt mean I want to try and marry them