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- 5y ago
Hi there and thank you for sharing.. that is very courageous of you to open yourself up to others- which is a good step! I’m wondering if you could start with your pediatrician or family doctor. If you need a school physical or immunizations for school that would be a good place to open up to a doctor who could listen and refer you to the best next step. (& if you have a sore throat and need to go to the doctors that could get you there too!)
@carolyng Thank you so much. I’ve thought about talking to my pediatrician (she’s a super nice woman,) but my mom is the only one who can bring me to those appointments, and, if I ask her to leave the room, she’d get suspicious. I’m thinking about talking to my dad again, but if I tell my mom about my thoughts, and how most of them are about her death, then it’d destroy her (she’s an amazing mother, and her whole world revolves around being a mom.) My dad is the only one who knows of my suicide attempt (and don’t worry, I’m no longer suicidal.) I can’t do that to my mom (she can’t know of my thoughts or suicide attempt,) and especially since the doctor would most likely talk to her afterwards. Thank you for responding! I’ll try to talk to my dad soon, but it’s a matter of finding the right time (he works a lot.)
You would be surprised how understanding parents are. If you and your dad are close he will not get angry at you. I told my dad about my thoughts and although he didn’t really understand them he really tried to help. About seeing a councillor, I’m sure the school councillor is qualified however I would recommend telling your parents what you’re going through and then trying to find a psychologist qualified in CBT and very familiar with OCD. I hope you get the help you need and feel better soon.
@SDGardiner I definitely understand what you are going through. When I was your age I had the same intrusive thoughts, it’s very hard. Because it can be hard to comprehend why you’re getting the thoughts you are. It’s very important to talk to someone you can trust about it. I talked to my mom, and that helped a lot. At the time I didn’t have a therapist or a psychiatrist I could talk to. If you can talk to a doctor or a mental health professional I would highly suggest it. Your dad loves you, though he may not understand. He would do anything for you. Keep your head up, and remember you aren’t alone!
LONG POST: Can someone help me by answering this? I’ve had intrusive thoughts before but I used to just push them away. In September, I had intrusive thought about life after death and it sent me into a spiral of fear and anxiety. I had trouble falling asleep and focusing during the day. I went to see a therapist a month later. It was a walk-in session and they told me to do CBT. Accept uncertainty and move on. This gave me even more anxiety. Eventually, with meditation, i was able to keep the thoughts at bay. Then in December, I began to have intrusive thoughts about my sister. They were sexually disturbing and I even wished that I could have intrusive thoughts about death again. I then it switched to sexual thoughts about my brother and he’s only a kid so I feel even more disgusted by myself. It’s been like this for three months now. I’ve tried meditating but it’s not doing much. I’m ashamed to tell my parents and I don’t know what to do. I’m afraid I’ll act on the thoughts all the time. Then I wonder if I actually want to have them. It’s so draining. I hate waking up each day to these thoughts. I wonder if I actually want to have them since I have had them for so long. I’m so frustrated with myself.
I’ve never been the type of person to open up about myself but these last 3 months have been the hardest, worst time of my life. I’m 16 years old, and I’ve been anxious and had anxiety my whole life. Over the last couple years I’ve learned how to cope with my anxiety and be a happy person. But one night in January, i was watching random videos on YouTube, and a video about serial killers came on. I’ve always been interested in crime shows/documentaries, so I didn’t think twice before deciding to click on it. In the middle of the video I had this intrusive thought that said “why do people murder loved ones or innocent people” and “what does it feel like to kill somebody” I am not aggressive, or have ever caused harm, but these thoughts scared me to death. I felt a instant shock of anxiety and panic immediately. I thought something was wrong with me. I turned my phone off and went to bed hoping the next day I would forget about it. Unfortunately I never forgot about the thoughts, and still have intrusive thoughts that affect my day to day life. I feel so hopeless, even after seeing a therapist, and being on Prozac for 5 weeks I don’t feel a difference. Every time I try to be positive and tell myself “they’re just thoughts” ocd tells me, “yeah sure, but what if you did these things”? “What if you WANT to do these things”? I stress that I might actually want to do these horrible things secretly and am convinced that one day I will commit these crimes. I don’t know what to do anymore, I feel so hopeless, and even being around my girlfriend who used to bring me so much joy, I still can’t be my regular self. Please I feel so hopeless and sad I can’t even do the things I used to enjoy, remembering I have these thoughts is with me 24/7 from the second I wake up to the second I fall asleep. Anybody have advice? Sorry for the rant I just needed to get this off my chest. I just want to be normal again and enjoy being around my family and my girlfriend again
i'm sorry in advance for how long this post is and if it's to much information. i'm undiagnosed but have been struggling with compulsions and intrusive thoughts since i was 7 or 8. My worst intrusive thoughts theme has been about p*d*phil*s. I've been dealing with it since my freshman and sophomore year but these thoughts didn't become debilitating until June of last year. I had a panic attack and confessed to my parents about these intrusive thoughts. They were obviously shocked and share. I felt so ashamed and like a monster. After talking with my dad he said we would see a therapist about it. Sadly we never did the first appointment we were late and missed are spot and the second appointment i sprained my ankle the night before so instead i was in the hospital. After that i closed myself off i tried dealing with them on my own using sources like NOCD and stuff. I did try to bring up going to therapy to my parents. Every time they would ask me if the intrusive thoughts were back and I would lie saying "no i just would like to go to therapy" I was so scared they'd be afraid of me and stop loving me, especially my mom. Eventually after awhile my parents forgot about it and I tried ignoring these intrusive thoughts because I was so focused and stressed from school. I decided I could just wait till I turn 18 and schedule myself into therapy. recently though my intrusive thoughts have gotten worse. I recently had a convo with one of my friends who has intrusive thoughts as well and she's encouraging me to talk to my parents. I'm asking y'all what should I do. As much as I'm scared I want to get help because I'm sick of living and feeling like i'm day away from acting on my intrusive thoughts.
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