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- 6y
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Hi there and thank you for sharing.. that is very courageous of you to open yourself up to others- which is a good step! I’m wondering if you could start with your pediatrician or family doctor. If you need a school physical or immunizations for school that would be a good place to open up to a doctor who could listen and refer you to the best next step. (& if you have a sore throat and need to go to the doctors that could get you there too!)
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- 6y
@carolyng Thank you so much. I’ve thought about talking to my pediatrician (she’s a super nice woman,) but my mom is the only one who can bring me to those appointments, and, if I ask her to leave the room, she’d get suspicious. I’m thinking about talking to my dad again, but if I tell my mom about my thoughts, and how most of them are about her death, then it’d destroy her (she’s an amazing mother, and her whole world revolves around being a mom.) My dad is the only one who knows of my suicide attempt (and don’t worry, I’m no longer suicidal.) I can’t do that to my mom (she can’t know of my thoughts or suicide attempt,) and especially since the doctor would most likely talk to her afterwards. Thank you for responding! I’ll try to talk to my dad soon, but it’s a matter of finding the right time (he works a lot.)
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- 6y
You would be surprised how understanding parents are. If you and your dad are close he will not get angry at you. I told my dad about my thoughts and although he didn’t really understand them he really tried to help. About seeing a councillor, I’m sure the school councillor is qualified however I would recommend telling your parents what you’re going through and then trying to find a psychologist qualified in CBT and very familiar with OCD. I hope you get the help you need and feel better soon.
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- 6y
@SDGardiner I definitely understand what you are going through. When I was your age I had the same intrusive thoughts, it’s very hard. Because it can be hard to comprehend why you’re getting the thoughts you are. It’s very important to talk to someone you can trust about it. I talked to my mom, and that helped a lot. At the time I didn’t have a therapist or a psychiatrist I could talk to. If you can talk to a doctor or a mental health professional I would highly suggest it. Your dad loves you, though he may not understand. He would do anything for you. Keep your head up, and remember you aren’t alone!
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- 20w
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