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Don’t worry we all go through this with HOCD and start thinking the same thing about our friends
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I know trust me. My ocd I feel like has started to morph my brain so much and it has just made me have a completely different mind set than I have ever had. It truly sucks but dw you’re not alone
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And the funny thing is, even when I try to be like “I’m going to accept that I’m bi.” I always end up thinking “But I’m not going to date any girls or anything like that. I’m still only going to be with men.”
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Thank you! I know that the rational part of my brain is saying “You’re straight silly” but it’s difficult
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Exactly! Now I get so concerned if I get excited when she texts me or snaps me like “That means you like her!” When in reality I’m probably just excited because she’s my best friend
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This has provided so much clarity for my own situation. It really has spun normal things that everyone experiences with their friends and spins it out of control completely.
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And in the midst of all of that anxiety, I’ve never really desired anything outside of friendship with her or my other friends
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I feel the same way! I think part of it is that I didn’t have a lot of friends in high school, so I’m very thankful for her friendship. But because I haven’t a lot of experience with friendship my HOCD spins it to mean that I actually have a crush on her
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I’m just a very emotional person so I kinda feel deeply for my close friends. Sometimes, I like to call it a “friend/platonic crush” because I admire them, but not in that type of way.
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Yes a friend crush! And the thing is my best friend talks about those all the time and I’m like “Cool.” But when it’s me I automatically think “Nope it’s romantic feelings.”
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Did you just describe me? ?
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I don’t really have any advice but to just move forward with the friendship. Continue being her friend because ultimately, that’s all you want. Even when those thoughts about it being something more come across, Don’t entertain or analyze them, and ask yourself this: Does the thought of being romantically intimate with them bring you joy? If it doesn’t, then that means that those thoughts were ONLY thoughts and that’s what OCD does to make it feel “real.”
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Thank you so much! It’s a struggle everyday, but hearing that I’m not alone and not crazy is great. I think it will be better when I get back to school and I see all my friends in person. I just have to remember that just because I have thoughts doesn’t mean that I have to act on them or that they are true!
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Especially the fact that you never felt like that before HOCD. I always loved my best friend cause we had so much in common and had the same style so ofc we were besties and we would go on double dates when we had boyfriends and stuff. Never once did I have a crush on her, she was simply just my best friend. But then once I got HOCD I eventually started thinking “omg what if I have a crush on her”
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Me too! My best friend is the type of person who gives lot’s of compliments and jokes around a lot and says “Let’s go on a date!” And I’ve always been fine because I know that she’s just kidding. And this year she helped me through a tough time with a boy. But now my HOCD makes me forget all the stuff about the boy and only focus on “You like her now!”
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See we’re not alone!
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Do you have any advice for moving forward with my friendship?
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So for a while i have been suffering of HOCD combined with a little of ROCD and had massive episodes of anxiety and panic attacks, because of that I lost my attraction and my libido while also being in a relationship and that stresses me bad. Also since the start of the severe anxiety I started to lose it gradually over time and at the moment I do not feel any anxiety anymore while having these thoughts which makes me think that I want this to happen because they don’t disgust me anymore. Any advices on how to hold on and get over my OCD? Also is the disappearing of disgust a sign of recovery or denial?
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Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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I don’t want to look for reassurance but I seriously need help. I got diagnosed with OCD in January of 2024. My first theme was religious OCD. I feared that I would commit the unforgivable sin of blasphemy against the Holy Spirit. Maybe about five months later I walked in to my dad’s room where he was watching a movie, and two girls did some stuff if you know what I mean. Later that day I started to panic that I was that way. At the beginning of my hocd I did many compulsions and a lot of rumination. I had bad anxiety and knew that I did not want a relationship with a woman. I had always known myself to be straight. I’ve liked men since preschool. From having a crushes and celebrity crushes and only wanting and fantasizing about men. But fast forward to now with my hocd, I have no anxiety and I’m feel like I’m in denial. Which I know is common but I believe I truly want and like this. Even though before I would have had a panic attack and said ew. When I think about dating a girl I feel as though it’s normal and I have no anxiety about not having anxiety. I’m a very big Christian and I don’t really want to be this way. I mean if I am I’ll deal with it I guess but I’ve never felt this way before. I used to always watch movies and be like I hope I find a man like that but now i do that with both genders I feel like. I felt numb but now it feels normal and that I truly want and enjoy it and that I’m okay with it. Am I in denial or is it hocd still? Can anyone relate? It just feels so real like it’s not hocd anymore and I feel like I don’t care and I just want to know yk. UGH I don’t know how to explain it.
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