- Date posted
- 2y
No Hope Anymore
I don't think I'm going to be here much longer to be honest. I feel like I've lost. I'm eternally grateful that I had over a decade where whatever this is temporarily rescinded, but my life's over. Pretty sure my wife's lost interest now after the strain of whatever I'm suffering with has put us in. I don't blame her. I love her, will always love her. Her and my kids are my whole world. But I can't see any future ahead for me. Even if this is OCD, I'll never mentally recover from what's happening. If it isn't OCD, I'll never be able to accept myself. Or forgive myself for what I've put my wife through in her life. Because of years of bad mental health I haven't worked properly for years and have no skills to use. I can't provide for my family. I'm useless, a fuck up and the world would be better off without me. I'm done. I lost. I want out of this.