I constantly get a strong urge to take revenge on some people who hurt me, and when I try to suppress this urge I get thoughts telling me that I’m weak and have no dignity and I must take revenge or else Could this be OCD ?
OCD themes can be about anything
@Nica But it’s confusing to spot the compultions and to know what ERP should I do
Get this all the time! Will be thinking about what someone did to hurt me and instantly say I hope they go to hell or I hate them I hope they rot, this is because I don't want anyone no matter how bad they hurt me to go to hell. ❤️
@TerryLee2217 Awww 🥹🥹
For me, my lastest real events OCD crisis, I the hours of ruminating all night long I began to plan revenge on others. That's when I knew I needed help.
@Mike in PA Did you know how to deal with it?
@lyn lyn Not until beginning ERP therapy. Are you in therapy?
@lyn lyn As I was having those thoughts I began to think maybe it's my destiny to spend the rest of my life in prison, like I had no option. OCD really distorts everything.
@Mike in PA No I’m not, I’ve always done ERP by myself by watching OCD self help videos where they they give examples, but I didn’t find anything about revenge that’s why I’m stuck When I refer to revenge, I mean going to these people and scream and fight with them and express to them how mad I am, cuz I never did so I always get confused is this a compulsion or a way to face my fears
Lately my suicidal ocd has been doing that to me. I don’t want to die but wishing I would do it just to enact revenge on my family members because of their dismissive treatment towards me so I could hurt them emotionally
@hellokittylover27 It’s actually something I’m dealing with in the moment
@hellokittylover27 Ohhh :( Wish you’re better now This sort of feeling is so frustrating, I hope we get better ❤️🩹
@lyn lyn and hellokittylover27, there's hope for change and healing. What triggers these thoughts?
My heart breaks reading this. You're more than your thoughts, we all are. I would love to talk to you if you need someone to talk to, I'm walking through similar OCD challenges. I'd be happy to walk with you. :-)
@Mike in PA For me, seeing or thinking the people who abused me triggers these thoughts Or whenever I try to move on and improve myself I suddenly remember what those people have done to me
@lyn lyn It's the same for me. I was planning revenge on people because of a real event. Do the thoughts of revenge happen as you're replaying the memories of the hurtful events in your mind?
@lyn lyn For me, when I am triggered and start thinking those thoughts, I stop my mind from ruminating or replaying and separate the thought from the emotions. I was hurt by those people and events, and I responded poorly as well, but I can learn to feel the proper emotions, to learn to forgive, even if they don't ask, take responsibility for my actions and learn from my mistakes... etc
@Mike in PA Yeah I actually get thoughts of revenge whenever I reply hurtful memories in my head Thank you for your response it really helped me understand what I’m going through 🙏🏼
@lyn lyn Just feel peace knowing it is the OCD. The memory triggers the thought and the feelings begin, so this is the biggest problem you need to fix at that moment. So going to them in person to scream and yell is a compulsion because it feels like you need to do that to fix the problem. In reality it'll only make things worse. Accept uncertainty and uneasyness, feel it, learn to sit with it... Doesn't seem natural but this is basically what ERP teaches. It's helping me so far. :-)
@Mike in PA Thank you for making things clear to me I really appreciate it
Does anyone else get super scared of feelings of adrenaline while you have intrusive thoughts? Like it feels like it’s trying to take over your body and those feelings of anger are trying to collide and dictate what ur body does? Now you feel impulsive and on edge and you feel like you are acting on your thoughts? Like I get thoughts about hurting family and I get super scared when I get feelings of anger about them and I feel that adrenaline! It’s all intrusive and I don’t like anything of it
Hey so a couple months ago (7-8) I remember being upset at my family member. Like she was talking too much while I was annoyed and remember wanting her to be quiet. I got an intrusive thought like a really bad image of doing something really bad to her, and my hand twitched to the side a little? Like it felt like I was about to?! And I remembered thinking "if I do this, I'll get in trouble". I got up and left to the bathroom and felt horrified! I was thinking "did I want to act out? Did the only reason I didn't act out was because of getting in trouble? If there was no consequences, would have I done it?! Does this mean this whole time I've been using OCD as an excuse?" I remember I couldn't sleep for 3 nights because of how bad the anxiety was, I was crying and I felt very guilty like I should turn myself in to a mental hospital. I couldn't eat for many days or be near her because of that thought and twitch I had! I'm worried it was an impulse or I actually wanted to hurt her. And even to this day I still ruminanate about this. Like last night I couldn't sleep well I kept waking up every two hours and asking myself "am I capable?" I couldn't eat last night. Sometimes I move on from it like I forget that happened but when I remember, I feel distressed about it! I don't want to be an evil person or do bad actions towards anyone! I'm even scared to be angry because of this because I'm scared I have more "chance" of acting out due to anger. Like was it an impulse and I held back? Is this even OCD? Please help, I'm really scared!
Harm ocd urges Does anyone else have such strong harm ocd urges regarding your obsession that it literally feels like you’re holding back from doing it? I understand that harm ocd does indeed include urges, but can they rlly feel THAT real? Like at any time I could just “decide” to do it?
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