- Date posted
- 2y
Slowly losing my faith/Problem of evil
Im sure many christians were here before or are still here... I feel like im slowly losing faith. The God that i thought is real is an imagination, and the real God is not that good God as a saw it... its about the problem of evil...Before i thought if i believe, God will help me get through hardships, doesnt let me down, will protect me from harm. Im not talking about bad things that makes us learn something, a better person and stronger... actually i like those things, i like to make myself a better/stronger person. But there are things that doesnt give you any teaching, its just puts you down, you feel alone, brakes you... Before i thought noone can harm me cause God is witj me... but now i learned that God doesnt interferes with free will... so God sended us here to suffer. Then people say "in heaven it will br better" i dont care... im living in this life now. These "in heaven it will be better" is just a stupid promise to avoid the pain now... and it triggers me. Cause i have suicisal ocd and when people say dying maybe its not that bad cause you will be with God, i just think okay then why suicide is a sin then? Why God sends us here? To suffer? Before i really had a loving picture aboit God but the more i read about the bible its just makes me think like he is a cruel God... and i dont feel any love for him,.i just feel anger...and thats why i think this isnt the real God... you feel love for God. God doesnt want you to fear, i was like that, cause i thought he will lead me and protect me,.but i jist learned that he doesnt do that... so theres nothing to cope with a fear... cause everyone can come and harm us and my family,.God will not protect us...So you still fear about your family getting harmed or you dying... and the stupid promise that "in heaven it will be better" doesnt help, then God put us here to watch as as a circus... There are alot of people who experienced the worse things and they dont want to hear from God,..how they should if they all experienced was loss and grief... God put them on earth to suffer and then He sends them to suffer...Its a really loving God... Again i dont say we should have an easy life, never have any problems... but everyone says You can lean on God in bad times,.He will help you, he can do anything, yet he will not protect you from danger, you have to accept that Evil rule this world and it will be better in heaven... I miss the loving God i had my relationship with...