Dementophobia, fear of psychosis after a bad weed trip.

@Val3304 Thank you so much for replying. To be honest, I went to 4 psychologist and 2 psychiatrist. All of them are 101% sure I don’t have psychosis. One of them thinks it is ocd and another thinks it might be ocd, but he leans more to severe anxiety mixed with hypochondria (he is the most experienced). This experienced psychiatrist is specialised in psychotic illnesses and has more than 40 years of practice. He also teaches other doctors. He told me he is absolutely and undoubtedly sure I don’t have schiz. And also, he told me exactly the same thing as you and other doctors I went to said it too: If I had such thing I wouldn’t know it and I wouldn’t be worried about it. They said this is a ground rule: no one with such problem knows it before he gets help. I’ve read there are people who know they had the problem, but most of them actually confirmed they are able to notice it happening after years of having it and years of treatment. Psychiatrist told me that in his 40 years practice there wasn’t a single patient that knew or suspected he has a problem with psychosis. And 99% of them were brought to him by family or friends. He also told me that he doesn’t need to listen to my thoughts which I got from reading , because if I had it, he would know 3 minutes after I stepped into his office without even saying a word. So basically this helped me to improve a lot. These “fake” delusions now cause very rarely and very minor anxiety, but I still get them. I just want to forget them, but I have a very good brain and memory unfortunately. I was always able to learn everything with a single time reading it both in school and university. But this time my good memory is against me 😬

@dant3 Looks like we have almost the same thing! One good doctor I had in France sadly not for a long time because I had to go back to the USA was specialized in OCD and cognitive behavior. He diagnosed my with OCD and mental health hypochondria. Sadly I which I could have him again he was so great. By the way my thoughts sometimes are making me very very anxious and it’s so annoying. And how old are you? Boy or girl? Because I suppose you know (we probably read the same stuff in internet) but schizophrenia occurs between 15-30 year old most of the time and before for guy than girl. I think about max early 20s for boy. And until late 20s for girls. Sadly I’m 24 so when I will be 26 I will feel much better.

@dant3 How are you doing I’m currently going through this?!

@Val3304 Exactly the same as you! Everything. Before reading about it I never had issues. But there was the fear factor of weed consumption that made reading so bad. I used to watch all kinds of movies related to psychosis and never had I such problem. I was almost 27 years old male when this happened. Now I am 27. Doctor said that for a man 27 y.o means almost impossible to start getting it and 99% of the time I would already have full symptoms around 20 or maximum of 22-23. He also said that people who get it have some symptoms very early in age around 13-14, but full symptoms hit after 18. And I never had even 1 symptom before reading about it. There are people on forums (1-2 cases very rare) of men which got it around 30 but they said their doctors told them they are just being diagnosed very late and moat likely they lived with it for many years with every others symptom before things got out of hand.