Can I talk to someone?

Quick question, I'm sorry if I'm being annoying, but what do I do if the thought doesn't go away? It's like a sticky thought, it's in the back of my head, and I just can't seem to get rid of it

@Bonez Like actually sit with it?

@Bonez Oooh, I've always had problems with that since I normally ended up having panic attacks so I never thought to try that

@Bonez Does it get easier?

@Bonez Does doubt happen to you when it comes to these thoughts?

@Bonez Man, this is so difficult

@Bonez Hello again, I don't know if you'll respond, but I was wondering if this also apart of OCD. Where you get urges or intrusive feelings about actually wanting to act on the thought and I've been struggling to push past it, it makes me doubt myself, and I'm worried that it's true

@Bonez Oh wow, I truly am sorry, I feel like I'm seeking reassurance and that probably isn't helping me, but anytime I hang out with said friend. The thoughts are intense, any advice?

@Bonez Thank you again, you're really helping me out

@Bonez Does OCD make you question your values and morals?

@Bonez Jesus, this is one hell of a disorder. Thank you again for responding to my questions

@Bonez Hello hello again, today's been rather rough, I'm extremely exhausted from going about my day without engaging in rumination and sometimes I feel like I'm failing, I've been fighting these thoughts for the last two months, and to suddenly shift my routine is tiring

@Bonez I'd like to know if distracting yourself is a compulsion, anytime I feel anxious, I try playing apps on my phone and I notice I go on this app a lot of times in order to seek reassurance or just to scroll through posts to see if anyone else is struggling like me. I'm worried that this app and the apps I play on my phone are a compulsion

@Bonez Wait so, these are helpful?

@Bonez I'm sorry if I'm annoying you btw, I've just barely decided to help myself, so I might be a reassurance seeking freak. Heh

@Bonez Ah, I figured, thank you again for answering my questions. I guess I've just been overwhelmed with not fighting these thoughts and having to accept them as thoughts is difficult. It feels like I want these thoughts too which I fucking hate so much. Groans

@Bonez Awh, I'm sorry to hear of that, remember please that you're your own person and regardless of OCD. No one will know you better than yourself

Hello, I know this may be sudden, but I've recently been suffering from a vivid what if thought this past two months, and the person it's centered around is someone online however I notice that I keep spending time with them and I'm still not over the thought? So, I began to worry that it wasn't OCD or what if this thought was true and it's been making my head ache for hours

@Bonez This may sound quite silly, but I keep having the "What if you unfriend them" type of thought and it's been bothering me to the point where it's all I think about all day trying to either figure out why I'm having the thought or I seek the reassurance from Googling. I know I'd never act on this thought in a million years, but this thought alone has been ruining me these two months

@Anonymous I'm worried I'll act on such a thought basically

@Bonez Thank you so much, I know this may count as reassurance, but these thoughts have been tormenting day and night and even in my dreams and I cannot emphasize how reassuring this this. Thank you. I'll do my best, but do you have any suggestions on what I should do?

@Bonez Thank you, thank you so much, but wouldn't taking a break for myself negativily impact my brain in proving my thoughts right?

@Bonez And I would also like to mention that depression has made me neglect taking care of myself, I used to have a routine, and shortly after this thought reered it's ugly head. I tried to move on with my days as if nothing was wrong, but it was then triggered once more after my online friend had vented to me, and I completely stopped my routine. Should I go back to it?

@Bonez Phew, that's going to be difficult, after my panic attack after my friend had vented to me. I sorta associated my panic attack with my routine and I've been avoiding it for the past two months out of fear that by returning to it will make me realize that my thoughts are true. I sound so silly 😓

@Bonez Oh I actually didn't think to call my OCD a name, got any suggestions?

@Bonez Pft, I've decided on Bailey. Although I have a feeling that I'm going to have a hard time getting back into my flow since I've been neglecting it for the past two months

@Bonez Thank you again for all of this, I'll do my absolute best