Feeling like I’m not worried enough

I’m at the stage where I’m doubting if I even have OCD (which is driving me mad) and now I’m worried I’m not obsessing enough over things. At the same time, my OCD is playing whack-a-mole with loads of different themes, and because I’ve already been through the ringer with SO-OCD, I feel as though I’m not obsessing enough over it even though I’m still scared I’m gay/bi and the compulsions are getting sneakier (internet searches, checking, panicking and talking about things, avoidance) and I just feel like a mess constantly, like I don’t know what’s going on with me from day to day.

Sexual Orientation OCD

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

That’s normal, once you’re ocd and you brain gets in a position of less worry, your going to start overthinking if you were ever even in an intrusive overthinking or overwhelming state. This is very difficult because you feel as if something must change or go away in order to feel better. I’ve noticed the same changes when trying to get back my old self to normal. Im not worried or confused with the situation anymore. But the thoughts are still there. But just not bothering me at all.

Username: ReadyForImprovementReadyForImpr...

Date posted: 1y ago

Ugh... having obsessional doubt about having OCD is so annoying and a classic game OCD likes to play. The good news about whack-a-mole and being concerned that you're not worried enough about your previously debilitating themes is that this is often a sign of progress! As we interrupt OCD's patterns, stop following its rules, reduce out reactions, habituate to triggers... OCD throws a tantrum. It starts changing things up, increasing its shenanigans, trying new things to keep you stuck. Keep going. Keep pushing back. Do your ERP. Use non-engagement for intrusive thoughts. The more you push and show your brain that anxiety is fine when it comes up, the more you go against OCD, the better you will get! Look up the NOCD blog post about back door spikes- that info tends to be useful in understanding some of the things that happen as you make progress. Sending you support ❤️

Username: Ponysalvaje16!amadaPonysalvaje1...

Date posted: 1y ago

I need help, I feel like I accepted that I'm gay, i feel like I don't want to avoid the thoughts, I feel like I don't want to make compulsions, this makes me so angry. I don't want this, I have been heterosexual for 20 years I feel like I lost my old self and my mind is not fighting anymore, I don't know how this can happen to people.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

@Ponysalvaje16!amada You’re still straight my man, you must influence your mind to let those thoughts pass with ease. You understand people without ocd have the awl thoughts as you, but they just allow them to pass easy. It’s the same thing except we’re obsessing about it. Nothing more

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 5y ago

I don’t want this to sound like reassurance, I’m just not sure. I’m pretty new to this and not officially diagnosed yet. But please can I ask- I am constantly thinking about this everyday, from the minute I wake up until I go to sleep. It used to ease off but not so much anymore. It’s not so much the original rOCD thoughts anymore (although they’re still there, I’m struggling to find them, I’m just feeling more lost and sad) but I’m constantly questioning is this OCD, or ‘I don’t have that symptom so it can’t be’ or ‘these therapists just want your money, there is no such this as rOCD’. I’m feeling sort of sad really- and my brain is telling me it’s my relationship but there’s nothing wrong with my relationship. Is it normal to be thinking like this, all day every day- is that obsessing? (I know this sounds like a silly question but my brain is playing all sorts of games with me at the moment!)

Relationship OCD

Username: Esosa

Date posted: 5y ago

This thing gets weirder and weirder I swear. I literally woke up, right. And my mind immediately went “What if you don’t have OCD? You’d just be really bi” and I went along pretending that I didn’t know about OCD and I was just experiencing denial. Then I scrolled on twitter and went on my friend’s page and then my mind went “why don’t you like her? There’s nothing wrong with her. I thought you were supposed to have a crush on her” Here’s the worst part in this: I’m now convinced that HOCD is a huge lie that I made up and it’s homophobic for me to suffer from this theme of OCD and label my “attractions” to the same sex as “bouts of anxiety.” Therefore, I’m not only a bad person, but a liar.

Sexual Orientation OCD

Username: florence18

Date posted: 3y ago

Really struggling at the moment with sexuality OCD, getting to the point where I’m constantly on the verge of tears, I’m avoiding watching movies, Netflix series, scrolling through Instagram and tiktok. I’m 18 and everyone around me seems to be bi, but I’m so scared I’m not attracted to guys anymore. I want children and I have always wanted to be with a guy, now I can barely look at anyone and I can’t even think about being in a relationship. My brain is like ‘your lying to yourself’ ‘what if your gay’ etc. I can’t do anything anymore, I just want to hide and curl up. Anyone else feel like this.. I’m scared I’m in denial or something, I have never been formally diagnosed but I’ve had so many other themes, I’m scared it’s not ocd and I’m using it as an excuse.. I just want to go back to normal

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