Lewis711
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- 1y
Worst of POCD?
What’s been the worst time of your POCD? I’m just wondering so I could see if I could relate to any of them.
mentalpatient mentalpatient
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- 1y
Convinced I’m a p Convinced I like the thoughts I’m having Convinced I want the thoughts
Lewis711Lewis711
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- 1y
@mentalpatient Do you also get attractive impulses?
Lewis711Lewis711
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- 1y
@Anonymous Hello, I’m coping. I’ve just tried to put aside my feelings and get on with my life. Emphasising on them seems to fuel the feelings and thoughts even more so I’m just getting on with my life. 👍
Lewis711Lewis711
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- 1y
@Anonymous I know you were asking the other person but what I strongly advise is to not dwell on them. It’ll put you into a repetitive cycle of overthinking. As hard as it is, try to distract yourself. Do something you’re passionate about or love doing, it’s one of the only ways to control the cycle of obsessive thoughts. I don’t dwell on mine as I know I have a normal and genuine attraction to people my age or of legal age so I stick to that knowledge. Don’t listen to these feelings, they want to destroy your morality and mess you up mentally.
Lewis711Lewis711
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- 1y
@Anonymous I know the anxiety is the worst. I have autism on top of that which makes it 10x as worse. I really hope everything works out for you. You are strong remember that. You are you, not your mind. Keep pushing.
Lewis711Lewis711
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@Anonymous Of course. :)
mentalpatient mentalpatient
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Or yeah I feel attraction all the time , but attraction doesn’t make you a p the sex does!
Lewis711Lewis711
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@mentalpatient I know, I get struggles and deep questions like, I enjoy this thought a little bit, am I really a p then? Like I don’t enjoy to the point that’s it’s real fantasy it’s like an obsession. Like I do like the idea and attraction of some impulses and thoughts but they are by overthinking and rumination.
mentalpatient mentalpatient
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Yeah I think I like them I want them all the time … but as people keep telling me even if you liked them it doesn’t mean your a p … thoughts are thoughts
Lewis711Lewis711
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@mentalpatient Yep. They don’t dictate who you are.
mentalpatient mentalpatient
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- 1y
Yep and that’s what you’ve got to always remember
Hopeful58Hopeful58
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 1y
Read the article right under your comment. The theme is not the issue. It is your response that feeds OCD. Fear feeds OCD.
Dreamer2343Dreamer2343
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- OCD Conqueror
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This comment section helped me so much.
hhsudidjdjjshhsudidjdjjs
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mine is rn it’s in crisis mode tbh i’ve convinced myself i may have come across cp unknowingly in the past and it’s the worst bc i can only rely on “memories”
Lewis711Lewis711
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@hhsudidjdjjs Yep, I’ve had this obsession before.
hhsudidjdjjshhsudidjdjjs
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@Lewis711 did u get over it? i’ve never dealt w something w such life shattering implications before tbh
Lewis711Lewis711
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@hhsudidjdjjs No. There’s no escaping it for me.
Lewis711Lewis711
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@Lewis711 POCD in general.
Lewis711Lewis711
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@hhsudidjdjjs Also, if you meant over that specific obsession, kind of. It never really occurs anymore as I know myself I’ve never watched cp.
hhsudidjdjjshhsudidjdjjs
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@Lewis711 ugh like ik i’ve never either but the doubt is SO STRONG that i did without knowing and my mind can fill in blanks so vividly like i used to have this where i was convinced i left my journal out with writings confessing my love to my roommates for like 2 years (never once did i have a crush on my roommates or even write about them)
Lewis711Lewis711
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@hhsudidjdjjs It’s OCD’s draining mindgame. If this occurs, i try to just sit with the feelings.
mentalpatient mentalpatient
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What do mean?
Lewis711Lewis711
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- 1y
@mentalpatient Like an attraction that just suddenly occurs that you don’t want.
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