Keep coming back

If instead you shifted your perspective to I don’t care one or the other if the thought is there or not it will have lesser control of a person. In fact if you go a step further imagine a out of town relative that is particularly irritating that will not leave your house for a long visit , if you have the mindset of being more indifferent, the circumstances will have less negative consequences and impacts .

I was reading up more on Frank Sinatra, glad you mentioned him a while back . Figure this he was one of the best most successful people that have lived both professionally and personally, and a very decent person. He overcame much with severe OCD especially as he got older , for example he took 12 showers a day , but Frank never gave up and left his mark forever on a large positive impact and scale throughout the world through eternity.

Yeah... and when I'm feeling better, i remember the thought and start the cycle again.

Because we just obsess over these horrible thoughts that can’t affect nobody else or us but just cause worry and stress and because of this it’s just fear that keeps taking over. I hate having thoughts come back but recently trying to talk to nature or help out nature has been kind of helping!