Looking for answers: I went to a very good medium (known around presidents) on that time i didn’t know I had HOCD, and I told him that inside my mind it was a voice telling me: “you are gay” and he told me very secure that i was bi! And he asked me if I had gone to a therapist. And i was 1 year and a half going with my psychologist, i was soo angry and confused, he told me that I was denying myself, so he suggested me to go witg his psychologist. It costed me like 4 months to cover from that. But now my mind is part with his voice: “you are bi”. So I learnt that nobody can give me the answer of who I am, even though he was a good medium.

Only you know the answer!

What I learned is that I’m not actually gay I know I’m not actually gay I just say to myself it’s just the OCD and that the thoughts will go away I also contradict the thoughts by flirting with girls and hitting on woman so when I get that voice “you are gay” I go wait a minute if I’m gay then why am I hitting on woman all the time then also I’ve always liked girls so I know I’m not gay being in a relationship I noticed helps get rid of the thoughts

A jctually i have a boyfriend, sometimes i feel i use him to “pretend” im straight. And also the medium told me If i marry him by that time it would be pure compromise because i care a lot what other people say, especially my family. But inside myself i dont feel like that, my oldest sister is married with a woman, she is sexologist and we don’t deny her. I feel i must be like her. Its so confusing, i feel like a ➰ bucle.

Also try not to focus on the thoughts because I noticed for me that it made it so much worse just ignore it dont let it bother you and if you start getting the thoughts do something to get your mind off of it it helps a lot and eventually over time the thoughts tend to die down and basically vanish

Thanks for the advice :) since when do u have HOCD ?

I’ve had HOCD when I was a kid but then it went away and it just came back recently.

But I learned how to control it