guest1234567
- Date posted
- 2y
Help
I gave in to compulsion and now that I remember I end it the wrong way and I have to fix it but I am afraid it will get worse but I can't leave it that way I am so paralysed please help me
VGHVGH
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
Hi, first, take some deep breaths. I know how difficult it is to to wait. to allow the uncertainty to be there. How we recover from OCD is by NOT doing compulsions, allowing the uncertainty and all the "feelings" that come when you don't go back and "fix" it. It's going to feel bad, it's going to feel like you are making a huge mistake. That's is ok, it's how you get better. I'm doing the exact same thing right now. I have an urge to do compulsions right now, to seek reassurance, to research, to check, etc. BUT I know that will only make my OCD worse. OCD promises us if we just do this one compulsion, check, fix, etc we will get relief. Oh sure, but the next time we have doubt, we will be caught in the same loop. Believe, I spent so many years stuck in the loop. It comes down to allowing the doubt, uncertainty and all those feelings to be there. Try to not get ahead of yourself. Is there something you can do right now to help you allow some time to pass, maybe take a walk, hit the SOS button on this app (Life preserver ring). Try your best to stay strong, don't ruminate, let time pass. If you absolutely feel that you must do a compulsion, delay it. Can you delay the compulsion until tomorrow? Right now, since I too would love to do a reassurance seeking compulsion, I've decided to jump into my day, doing value-driven behaviors. I'm not getting ahead of myself, trying to figure something out or solve a problem. I'm staying in the moment. It's ok to feel afraid. Remember recovery takes time and practice, and you are on the right track. Wishing you all the best, you are stronger than you know.
guest1234567guest1234567
- Date posted
- 2y
I am feeling terrible bc I am trying to find the perfect compulsion but ocd isn't accepting any of them but I have to bc I can't let this one this way it's impossible I am very angry at myself for didn't control myself if I haven't done the compulsion I wouldn't be at this condition it's all my fault my life is over
Steven55!Steven55!
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
@guest1234567 - There is no perfect compulsion and you can't reason with OCD. The goal is to stay away from compulsions; They are part of the OCD pattern and are a problem. I second what others have said. Please consider getting help from a trained OCD therapist who uses ERP therapy. You can find great ones through this NOCD site.
guest1234567guest1234567
- Date posted
- 2y
@Steven55! My problem is that the therapist doesn't include my country and it is very hard to find help I feel so terrible
CancelPure0CancelPure0
- Date posted
- 2y
@guest1234567 Your life isn’t over! Believe us, we’ve all been there thinking its over for us. This is going to happen until you realize that this isn’t you! Its a glitch in your mind . OCD attacks what you care about the most! You’re not alone. Others have conquered it like myself but continue to wrestle with it from time to time. You will conquer this! Its all about informing yourself correctly.
Steven55!Steven55!
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
@guest1234567 Are you in England?
guest1234567guest1234567
- Date posted
- 2y
@Steven55! No
Wolfram Wolfram
- Date posted
- 2y
Have you done erp before?
guest1234567guest1234567
- Date posted
- 2y
No
ElevenBElevenB
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
@guest1234567 Listen to VGH. ERP is hard! But living with OCD is harder. I'm doing ERP thos morning and it can be like a roller coaster. Hang in there.
Wolfram Wolfram
- Date posted
- 2y
@guest1234567 Look up videos on it. Always do it with a goal in mind. The response to anxiety and stress you'll have in not doing the compulsion is key. It's going to feel awful, maybe to the point of maybe a panic attack but that will subside and you'll feel better after. VGH's response is a really good one💪
VGHVGH
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
There are many helpful resources out there, this book “Needing to Know for Sure” by Winston and Seif was very helpful to me. Explore the NOCD’s YouTube channel there are many helpful videos there too. As others have said, the compulsions (things you do to feel better) are what is making it worse. This may help https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/if-youre-struggling-to-resist-compulsions-try-these-5-strategies-instead. Most of all keep trying to move forward, you have found this site, explore the information, recovery takes time and practice. It is worth the effort. Keep working on it.
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- Date posted
- 20w
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