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- 2y
hurt & confused
i found out he cheated on me a month ago after 3 years of being with him and being engaged. i broke up with him and i’m glad i did and proud i was strong enough to walk away. but whats f**king me up is the fact that after a month of no contact. he texted me calling me evil and a narcissist for leaving him for cheating on me. and he was victimizing himself and trying to turn the whole thing on me when he cheated. i’m glad i could see past his manipulation tactics and all it did to me was give me the ick and make me lose the little respect i had left for him. but i couldn’t help but feel hurt bc this isn’t the person i fell in love with. idk how he changed or why. was he ever in love with me? ik he isn’t a narcissist bc he has actual real empathy. ik at some point he loved me. but how can someone who loved you act this way and treat you like this. he even said “i’m mad you went a whole month without talking to me go another month”…. is he delusional? i broke up with him bc he cheated why would i talk to him? when i asked him why he did it, he said “idk it was just a f**k up, social media is one hell of a thing, she commented on my stuff so i commented on hers”, whats hurting me about that is our whole relationship he would tell me how bad cheating is and how he could never even look another woman’s way and that its not hard for him to be loyal and he even commented on a random tik tok a year ago that just so happened to come on my “for you page” that said he was in love with me and that he could never find another woman attractive and that he hopes he never will. he was the one who brought up marriage, he was the one to ask for my parents blessings, he was the one who introduced me to his whole family. was it all fake? did he just love being loved? how could he be so evil and treat me like shit. my friends told me it means he never cared about me. but i think i’m intuitive and observant enough to know automatically when someone is genuine or not and i felt he was genuine throughout the 3 years probably until the end. bc we were toxic and arguing a lot. but cheating so easily? and saying bc she commented on his stuff. first of all he literally had a video of me posted on his page. does he have no shame? same for the girl. and instead of after a month coming to me apologizing at least, he came at me rude and arrogant and as if i was in the wrong. i am so confused and hurt i don’t get it. my trust is ruined. i don’t think i could trust a soul again. you don’t get it he seemed head over heels for me. not only that even the way he looked at me or the things we’ve been through. he was genuine i’m not crazy. but wth happened for this to unfold like this? clearly he isn’t the one for me and is immature at his big age. but why? like ik the trust was gone for both sides towards the end but going as far as cheating and then not even being apologetic for it , is crazy. please someone give me some insight before i ruminate :(, it would be greatly appreciated. and for even reading this long i thank you. <3