Question for the guys.

Yes true its like it highlights certain things and makes you question them. I understand you maybe one day you can get back to doing those things you enjoy and even watch some rom com anime 😁

@My OCD Academia I also enjoy reading romantic books and watching romantic movies. I always enjoyed that I was different than most guys in terms of being able to connect to a more emotional side, but OCD has come after it. I’m continuing to do these things even though it can be anxiety-provoking, and I encourage you to do it as well! :)

@D99 The funny thing is i pike romantic movies too and i also avoid it mostly because of being afraid my ocd latching on to the guy or something. But ima challenge myself

@Mr.ocd That’s something that has bothered me as well. I’m at the point now where I watch movies that have attractive men just to trigger myself. I’ve always been able to recognize that other men are objectively attractive, and then when OCD hit it took that ability and ran with it as proof that I’m not straight because of that.

@D99 Same here is just acknowledgement and admiration of good looks that my ocd loves to twist and make me think hes "cute".

@Mr.ocd Yup! I can see a guy that could be a model but my OCD doesn’t allow me to just acknowledge he’s attractive. It’s definitive “proof” that I’m not straight 😂

@D99 kinda random, but yesterday i was trying to listen to a song called “I love girls” and I wasn’t focusing when I was typing since I was ruminating in my head and then I realized i was typing “i love guys” and i freaked out and quickly erased it and now i can’t stop thinking about it. Small stuff like that makes my brain turn inside out

@My OCD Academia To be fair i would be tripping out myself if that happened to me. Its similar to when im doing a checking compulsion checking if i like a guy my ocd latched on to or just a random habituated cumpulsion ill be like do i like him? Like? And in my mind it randomly says yes especially if its making me see him through rose colored lens i freak out.

@D99 Yeah this happens to me too gotten to the point even if hes decent looking my brain will try to use that against me as "proof" you think hes cute! You like him! Etc etc terrible.

@Mr.ocd Yep, our subconscious ocd minds get the best of us. it’s happened before. like i’ll be thinking of my ocd in my head and i’ll be texting my mom at the same time and i’ll subconsciously write out what my ocd is saying and i’m like what the hell? i just have to remember all this is ocd. it’s like so clear it’s just another theme but my brain can’t comprehend that

Honestly i dont really get what ifs, i mean i do but not alot... for me its more like my ocd is showing me other videos of a possibility, thinking about the possibility of "feeling" something such as attraction, or just like intrusive statements. What really get me hooked and i get stuck is if i cant answer said questions like do i like him and like i cant answer its like my brain isnt there. Also the urgency of a cumpulsion.

@Mr.ocd i have those ocd videos of possibility too. it sucks. u ever feel like you’re the only person who has certain symptoms? like if something happens that is a trigger, you question if this is the one trigger that “proves” it’s not ocd?

@My OCD Academia cuz that’s me on a daily

@My OCD Academia Yeah like if the video in my head of possibility feels real. I dont question if this is the trigger that proves its not ocd but instead i respond like it is the trigger that proves its not ocd, like my brain skips that whole question part and just reacts.