I feel like i cheated on my partner

feeling guilty for wanting other men to find me attractive or hot. im disgusted in myself for wanting it or for maybe acting in a way that was provocative when im in a relationship. i love my boyfriend and would never cheat on him. but why does my head get filled with thoughts and wants about ither men. i’m beating myself up over this. can anyone share some insight??

i have a partner but almost every time i see a guy i have tingles or other body reactions or i think would i be with them? i also have thoughts about people from my past that i’ve been sexual with and some of the thoughts are sexual and flashbacks. this is causing a lot of problems for me and my partner i don’t know what to do. my partner gets insecure. i think about things like is this person better than my partner? did they satisfy me better? i compare and compare and i also have this thing where i confess and i’ve asked my partner if i should stop confessing even though i would probably feel guilty if i didn’t but they don’t want me to stop confessing or speaking how i think. i feel like i struggle with guilt aswell because i feel guilty for almost everything i do, sometimes things the normal person wouldn’t even think much about.

I've been dating my girlfriend for 4 months now. I know that I want to be with her and that no one else compares. We are currently doing long distance but will be together in a couple of months. I have multiple intrusive thoughts about finding others attractive or liking the attention other give me. At first I was okay with this because I knew that that i wasn't going to pursue anyone over these feelings. A classmate of mine, began sitting with me at lunch and everytime we talk I get thoughts. Comparing my partner to her or admiring her. Yesterday, they were constantly appearing. I wanted to run away from her because of all the thoughts I was having. I felt pretty sick and then thought of a moment where I "flirted" with her. I began to feel guilty even though I knew that I have absolutely no intentions of being with this person whatsoever. But I continued to think about this moment, I said I'd never do something like that again and moved on. But in the afternoon on the way to the store with my mom, I was looking out the car window. Im not sure why, but a part of me feels like I was doing it because I was curious of what attractive people I would see. Then this guy drives past and gives look of checking us out. I gave that look back. But I immediately felt guilt because I flirted back. And it felt like I was looking for people to pursue. I know that I do not want to cheat or betray my girlfriend, but in that moment I felt like that way the reason for me looking out the window. I'm not sure what to do.