Confessional OCD

Anyone got concessional OCD where it just eats up at you. My mind feels like I need to confess every minute detail to my current partner. Any time I may have wronged him , compulsively look for a time I've lied , want to talk about past people so he knows everything about me. But the thing is he does know everything about me. I'm just ill. If I have something I want to confess I think of something else. Then I'm sitting lying next to him feeling riddled with guilt even though I don't have to feel guilty . Help anyone ?

"Pure" OCD

tiana17

Date posted: 1y

I used to struggle a lot with this and it really affected my relationship with my partner. He knows everything about me and I felt that I had to tell him more even though it wasn’t necessary. I used this as a way to rid feelings of anxiety and also to seek reassurance that I wasn’t a bad person. I found that a lot of what my brain was scanning for was times where I had been “bad” and a lot of what I was remembering was actually altered or false. Some of these things I confessed I knew the answer to but my ocd made me think that it was worse or something different happened as I was so into the idea of thinking I was a bad person. I later realised that these were all compulsions and by participating in them it only made it worse. I later learnt that whenever things like this came up it was just my brain “tricking” me or “lying” to me. And I came to learn that I need to trust myself and trust in who I am and what I know is right. It’s not an easy thing to go through especially when it’s a battle with your own mind. But being able to differentiate and realise when this is your OCD and when it isn’t is a big thing that helped me. I used to talk to it and be like “no you’re lying to me” or “I know what actually happened stop being stupid” Just little stuff like this made me overcome it a little bit and feel a lot more comfortable with it myself However I’m not an expert and if I’m wrong please correct me. Just putting in my two cents.

tannyt

Date posted: 1y

Is there somewhere I can message you could do with some support with someone who relates

tiana17

Date posted: 1y

Of course! What platform would you prefer? I have pretty much anything

tannyt

Date posted: 1y

Instagram? x

tiana17

Date posted: 1y

@tannyt Sure! What’s your ig? I’ll add you

tannyt

Date posted: 1y

@tiana17 @taniathomsonx

chickenmomma

Date posted: 22w

I struggle with confessing

This is my first post & I’m terrified. I have not been officially diagnosed w ocd yet but in a nutshell - I confessed some things I felt guilty about to my husband about five months ago. ( nothing too major ) but in our past, 20+ years ago I was unfaithful and it caused a LOT of harm, which I told him all of that back when it happened. But in recent months, I started getting consumed by guilt. I couldnt eat or sleep until I finally broke one night and told him all these recent little things I felt guilty about. Acting flirty, etc. And for him it like brought back allll the trauma from 20 years ago which I didn’t know would happen. But it’s so bad. He says he wishes I never told him. But even w that, I still feel like I keep thinking of “new things “ I did in the past, thoughts I had or dreams, or conversation w an ex,things like that. Because I am a Christian I also keep feeling like it’s the Holy Spirit telling me I haven’t told him everything and I need to. But I also know God doesn’t give us a spirit of fear .. I clearly need help, but I also want Christian based help so that it’s in line w what I believe ? I can’t eat and my anxiety is so bad again - I know if I confess more things it will keep destroying him, I don’t think he really understands or believes I have ocd. Thanks if you made it this far

Sunny87

Date posted: 21w

“Lying by omission”

FINALLY identified a core fear of mine and it is deceit and lying by omission. My biggest compulsions are confession & rumination. I immediately WANT to confess to whoever the theme is about, BUT since I am NOT acting on the compulsion (*yay*), I feel like I am lying by omission. For example, I will think of a mistake I made in the past, become anxious at the thought that my partner would break up with me over it, and then I want to confess so that he has all the information he needs to make an accurate decision on if he wants to be with me. Otherwise, I feel as though I am withholding pertinent information and his decision to be in a relationship with me is based on lies & fabrication. On one hand I am proud of myself for not compulsively oversharing / acting on compulsivity. On the other hand I worry I am stepping out of my values of honesty & integrity. Or perhaps worse, claiming “compulsion” in the name of hiding from the possibility of whatever consequence may result in me sharing the mistake. Any recommendations?

Lillo2000

Date posted: 11w

Confession compulsion

I’ve been feeling the compulsion of confession again. I hate confessing things to my boyfriend I don’t want him to carry the burden. I’d rather hurt than him hurt. But I feel I did something wrong and he needs to know. Like I need to be punished or something. I may be over reacting to it but I just feel guilty and I had a panic attack when I woke up yesterday. I would never cheat on him. Just making guys laugh I feel like I am doing him wrong or flirting. And then when I notice it I just feel awful. I just want to be liked and noticed not romantically but just as a human. I don’t know why I act like this and feel the need to tell him as if I slept with someone. I think it’s attacking my biggest fear which is losing him. Does anyone have experience with this?

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