Struggling with intrusive blasphemous thoughts and seeking support and encouragement.

Blasphemous thoughts

Hey guys, I’m really suffering right now. I’m not trying to promote a victim mentality or any of that so… I’m trying to let my thoughts go because my intrusive thoughts and obsessions revolve around the unforgivable sin and for some reason in my head I have horrible blasphemous thoughts on repeat that sometimes are not prompted (meaning triggered) and they absolutely violate my being. It isn’t a new problem for me but I feel like it’s evolved into ME not being able to think the name “Holy Spirit” without something vile or nasty coming out of my mind. Or it even at this point feels like my heart. It’s horrible. I went to a women’s retreat today and as we were talking about being “born again” I was TRIGGERED. I came in feeling like a child of God but the more these thoughts I had took place the more I felt like it wasn’t possible for me to be. I said it’s not new but I have a really hard time believing that it’s not my fault. Can anyone relate to thoughts feeling like they are 100% yours and that you are responsible? It’s completely messed up the dialogue in my mind it’s like I can’t speak in it anymore unless it’s blasphemy. I feel scared, but I know that God is working. Any encouragement or… thoughts?

Religion & Spirituality OCD

Username: Kris JKris J

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Sorry to hear what you’re going through. Scrupulosity is one of my scariest subtypes of OCD because it produces the strongest negative emotions. I’ve also had those intrusive thoughts around the unforgivable sin. What’s helped me is knowing that it’s not of God but rather of OCD and it’s helped me understand his Grace better. Hang in there. I’m rooting for you!

Username: bayleaf 🌱bayleaf 🌱

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

God is such a good and gracious god and he knows your heart and that you really don’t mean those things even when you don’t know for yourself. He loves you and he’s rooting for you

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

I'm sorry. Yes, I can relate to feeling like the thoughts are yours. When I first realized I had OCD it was because of a really blasphemous thought. It happened during prayer, and I couldn't pray right for probably about a year after the incident. Prayer was a grueling experience... But, after a bunch of ERP, I can pray like nothing ever happened! (I'm a little upset because for the last few years I've been doing ERP for something completely different and I am still really struggling, but IDK... that's unrelated.)

Username: RMO2023RMO2023

Date posted: 1y ago

Thinking those things and saying them are different things. You can't stop the thoughts from coming, but you can choose which ones to feed (by speaking them as if you meant them.) It seems you hqve "thought action fusion". This is not the unpardonable sin. Don't worry and read the passage in the gospel that deals with this again, so you can be more clear. It's not about thouts, but about what was said and Jesus explains it clearly.

Username: RMO2023RMO2023

Date posted: 1y ago

But also, those people did not believe in Christ. We are in christ, therefore, all our sins are forgiven.

Username: drak4drak4

Date posted: 1y ago

Try out this book Ian Osborn MD Can Christianity Cure Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder?: A Psychiatrist Explores the Role of Faith in Treatment - its have a stories of christian heroes of past, who struggeled with OCD... It helped me a lot, to see I am not alone and that it is not a Gods punishment... Wish you lot of blessings.

Username: KelSul73KelSul73

Date posted: 5w ago

You’re definitely not alone- I will give you a trigger warning about some of his stuff because I watched/listened in to his podcasts for looking for reassurance BUT (a good “but”) Mark DeJesus has a lot of great stuff about battling ocd as a Christian. He started his journey with ocd wanting to accept Jesus into His heart and feeling like he accidentally accepted evil… he has been through his own version of hell too and he came out so much stronger on the other side!

Username: KelSul73KelSul73

Date posted: 5w ago

I also struggle with that and I’ve let myself compulsively say different awful things about God (see I don’t even want to type but whatever) in broken sentences and I’ve had thought action fusion about it too- it can get better. Keep pushing. I’m really struggling with ERP but keep reaching out for help and consider this guy’s resources when you’re in a better mental place:)

Username: Cammy123

Date posted: 31w ago

Religious OCD & Intrusive Thoughts

So about 2 weeks ago I started having blasphemous intrusive thoughts about God & Jesus! I’ve had them before but they’re hard to brush off because you feel awful and disgusted for even having them. They were “rejecting thoughts” I finally was able to just let them float on by and not pay attention to them. My main theme is doubting God & Jesus but I’ve noticed it’ll switch on me. Sometimes my mind will doubt if it’s OCD! So currently 2 days ago I’ve been getting the blasphemous thoughts again but when I said “I love you Jesus” I heard instead of Jesus it was Satan! I panicked and sometimes when I say I love Jesus and God I hear “I love you S____” it freaks me out!!! I love God & Jesus so much! Those thoughts cause so much anxiety!!! I would never say that thought and I wish it would go away or remove all those thoughts! I Like ughh those awful intrusive thoughts hurts so much! Some times if feels like I think them or say them purposely in my mind! But I try to remind myself I don’t want them! They cause so much anxiety and distress for a reason! It’s just so annoying when it’s constantly changing and throwing other “themes” I try to tell myself this is still in the same category! I had a certain blasphemous thought weeks ago and now it’s a “new” one and I think it’s still a thought it’s just different and maybe that’s how it’s trying to trip me up! But then usually a bunch of them start coming like beating me down! Maybe it’s the themes switching up on me again but ughh it’s really hard! Makes it feel like it’s me but I don’t want these thoughts at all!!! Everytime I say I love Jesus & God those thoughts come and just randomly! I feel like it’s “me” but I’m reminding myself it’s OCD! The more I react the more they come! They make me feel like God is mad at me or He doesn’t love me which I know isn’t true at all! I know He loves me so much!! It’s just so sad that my mind thinks that! Sometimes I feel like He is mad or will leave me but I know that’s not true!! Any advice please 😭

Username: Cammy123

Date posted: 31w ago

Religious OCD - Blasphemous Intrusive Thoughts

Hi everyone! My main theme in religious OCD is doubting God & Jesus! It hurts me heart I love them but I’m trying to remember His love and grace! Recently I’ve been having major blasphemous intrusive thoughts! I’ve had them before throughout my OCD journey but this time it’s kinda hard to let go and they’re coming so hard! They scare me! They can be very mean and just disgusting. Cursing, denying and just thoughts I hate! I ask for forgiveness and don’t always “feel” forgiven! I love Jesus & God! These thoughts hurt so much! Sometimes they make me feel like I want them or I’m saying them on purpose! I feel like I subconsciously “check” & ruminating on them. I know this is a normal and common OCD theme but it’s like sometimes I feel like I doubt my OCD! Especially whenever I have blasphemous intrusive thoughts! Like my brain just thinks “nope it’s you not OCD”. Like it doesn’t feel like OCD but Ik OCD can make it feel “very real”. It makes me feel like God is mad at me or upset! Or He doesn’t love me as much or just can’t be “forgiven” which I know is a lie and not true! I love God so much! Ik OCD attacks on hat we love it’s just my mind will doubt I have it! Please any tips to overcome these thoughts! I feel a lot of shame, guilt, fear, anxiety and sadness for having these thoughts! I know people say “they’re just thoughts” and not bad but they feel like that. Any advice?! Has anyone else gone through this?

Username: Cammy123

Date posted: 27w ago

Religious OCD - intrusive thoughts

I love God & Jesus so much and having these awful blasphemous thoughts suck! I’ve been through this before and eventually got over it but it came back! I get cussing thoughts, rejection thoughts and just the opposite thoughts of who I am and what I value! I love them so much and I get scared what if I’ve said these intrusive thoughts out loud! I don’t think I have but the thoughts can be just so loud! Any advice to move forward past these thoughts? I’m trying to remind myself God & Jesus loves me no matter what but it can be hard when I’m being plagued by these blasphemous thoughts that make you doubt yourself too! Makes you doubt if you’re a Christian for these awful thoughts! Please any advice? Will God & Jesus be with me no matter what? I love them so much!

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