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I am actually a virgin and have never been in a relationship. I have seen all the evidence around me that my status is not normal for many and it has led me to think that makes me a lesbian and that I’ve been lying to myself. Which is crazy since I have only had crushes on guys and am simply scared they’re lying and don’t actually like me, which is the reason for never being in a relationship: I’m scared. Which then causes me to create false memories of attraction, like looking back and knowing I thought a woman was beautiful and cool and I admired her, but now my intrusive thoughts tell me that’s a lie and I was actually attracted to them and was a lesbian all along. It’s crazy and confusing but you’re not alone.
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I’m actually almost the same as Mae, I’m not necessarily scared of being in a relationship I just fear that they don’t actually like me. Then I doubt liking them, and second guess myself. I have a crush on this boy and my ocd is doubting that I have a crush, I know I want to date him but my mind is very tricky and confuses me. I don’t want to be a lesbian, and I don’t want to date girls so I’m not that way. I’m trying to stay positive because if I don’t want to be something I don’t have to be it. If I don’t desire to be with a girl then I don’t like girls. If I’ve only had crushes on guys then I like guys not girls. I know it’s not going to be easy for my brain to get, but I know what I am, and maybe sometimes I’ll feel like I don’t know who I am but that’s just ocd doing it’s thing. :)
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Yeah it is, it feels veryyy real sometimes. Like I’ll be driving home from somewhere and I feel like I’m genuinely confused about my sexuality. I just want to know but I know that I’ll never know for sure. I have to except uncertainty! That’s the only way I’ll get better
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I get all of that Afazz! It’s just so crazy when your at war with your own brain!
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Thanks for sharing Mae. It sounds like you’re going through basically the same experience.
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Do you perhaps experience things like being so frustrated and numb because of how much your ocd drains you ? Then you are naturally caught up in a compulsion where you’re “physically testing” yourself to lets say something you watched years ago that is usually against your orientation?? If you know what I mean ? Even though you know you are (your own sexuality) and are in a very loving relationship and you really love your partner but does anyone experience this ?? And then they’re faced with more thoughts about how they’ve betrayed their partner and how their partner will leave and if you also struggle with scrupulosity ocd you feel like you’ve committed a huge sin and betrayed your faith ? Again I get all of this goes against values and that the human body may still react to things we naturally may be against but anyone still falls for the testing and then has this awful reaction afterwards? And does that really mean I betrayed my partner ?? Thank you so much for your time and I would really love your insights as this is something that popped up with me out of the blue …
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Hi everyone, I’ve been really anxious lately, and I just need to get this out of my head. Someone recently told me that maybe I’m bisexual — that I might be more sexually attracted to women, but more romantically attracted to men. That bisexuality is not 50/50. And ever since I heard that, I’ve been spiraling. The thing is: I don’t want this to be true. It scares me. I don’t feel romantic attraction to women, I’ve never wanted to be in a relationship with one. But yes, I get aroused by fantasies involving women — and that makes me feel broken or like I’ve been lying to myself. I love my boyfriend deeply, I don’t want to lose him. I want to feel fully connected to him, physically and emotionally. But now I’m stuck in this obsessive loop of questioning: “What if I’m just in denial?” “What if I’m not really straight?” “What if this is why my libido is low?” It’s exhausting, and I don’t know if this is OCD, anxiety, or if something is fundamentally wrong. Has anyone else felt this split — romantic feelings for one gender, sexual feelings for another? I feel so alone and scared. Thanks for listening.
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I have a lot of trouble with my sexuality. I’ve been trying to figure out my sexuality for years. I’ve dated a man, and I wasn’t really into the whole time. And since then I’ve thought that maybe I’m a lesbian because I’m attracted to women, which I know for sure. But then my brain spirals, I constantly think back ti memories with my ex, how I felt with him, I check how it makes me feel. I often google to see if other lesbians have felt similar, I ask ChatGpt over and over again. I feel like I have to be 100% certain or that im faking for attention, or thst I’ll end up with a man. I guess im wondering has anyone else felt like this ? What’s been your experience how do you manage it?
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