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- activemind
- Date posted
- 5y ago
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- MaeGreeneMaeGreene
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I am actually a virgin and have never been in a relationship. I have seen all the evidence around me that my status is not normal for many and it has led me to think that makes me a lesbian and that I’ve been lying to myself. Which is crazy since I have only had crushes on guys and am simply scared they’re lying and don’t actually like me, which is the reason for never being in a relationship: I’m scared. Which then causes me to create false memories of attraction, like looking back and knowing I thought a woman was beautiful and cool and I admired her, but now my intrusive thoughts tell me that’s a lie and I was actually attracted to them and was a lesbian all along. It’s crazy and confusing but you’re not alone.
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- crazyfeelings crazyfeelings
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I’m actually almost the same as Mae, I’m not necessarily scared of being in a relationship I just fear that they don’t actually like me. Then I doubt liking them, and second guess myself. I have a crush on this boy and my ocd is doubting that I have a crush, I know I want to date him but my mind is very tricky and confuses me. I don’t want to be a lesbian, and I don’t want to date girls so I’m not that way. I’m trying to stay positive because if I don’t want to be something I don’t have to be it. If I don’t desire to be with a girl then I don’t like girls. If I’ve only had crushes on guys then I like guys not girls. I know it’s not going to be easy for my brain to get, but I know what I am, and maybe sometimes I’ll feel like I don’t know who I am but that’s just ocd doing it’s thing. :)
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- crazyfeelings crazyfeelings
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Yeah it is, it feels veryyy real sometimes. Like I’ll be driving home from somewhere and I feel like I’m genuinely confused about my sexuality. I just want to know but I know that I’ll never know for sure. I have to except uncertainty! That’s the only way I’ll get better
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- MaeGreeneMaeGreene
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I get all of that Afazz! It’s just so crazy when your at war with your own brain!
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- activemindactivemind
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Thanks for sharing Mae. It sounds like you’re going through basically the same experience.
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- AG._.
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- ranchdoritos88
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- phew99914
- Date posted
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