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Not ocd but this feeling that I will never be happ
Yesterday it was a tough day for me, karma came back to beat my ass up. I went on 2 dates this week with a guy but we won't go on dates anymore since we didn't felt like we were compatible (I am obsessing a little over him tho even if I felt the same as he did (that we aren't compatible)). That is ok like fine not ideal but I think it is kinda common. The worse is that I feel like I ruined my life because yesterday I was talking to a friend and he asked me if I was ok I said I wasn't and he asked why and I replied with the boy I went on dates thing. My friend left me on read for the entire afternoon and I panicked because I knoe that he liked me in the past and we have had a little more than friendship back then. Turns out he still likes me which I tbh I thought he still liked me but I wasn't sure and I was trying not to send mixed signs tho I really like him like I have a lot of affection towards him but I don't feel any sexual attraction which I guess makes us incompatible for any kind of romantic relationship. Yeah so he got sad I got sad now I feel like shit. Because clearly there is a pattern in me of being confused about my feelings and having a crush on multiple people at the same time. Apart from that I was going to stay with this friend on a lot of group projects in college but now I feel like it would be best if I find other people to work with. I would appreciate if anyone could give me their 2 cents on this. I am feeling like absolute crap like I ruin everything and I will never have a normal life with good friendships and a boyfriend who trully loves me because I am a mess and I just want to evaporate.